Home is a Jail Cell

[Jay_Swagg_LOL]

I feel like since I changed schools I can never REALLY be myself. The only time I could be my happy flamboyant self was last year at my old school. I still talk and hang out with my old friwnds though. Like this year I went t the fair with all of them and had the time of my life, but now I go to a schol full of ghetto ass kids and I have to act tough. Thank God my class is likeable and I can sorta be myself, but it's like at home, It's harder than school alot of the time. Sometime I just wanna runaway forever and never come back but I know I wouldn't survive. Because I'm the top of my class my family pressures me, mainly my brother Terrence. He's been punching me in the chest since like 2nd grade for making bad grades, and he thinks nothing of it and says he's the reason i'm so smart. But last year, he took it to a whole new level.

Last year my brother Joseph came back from Texas and kept yelling at me for small reasons so he made my mom put me on punishment and I couldn't use my tablet and said if I get in trouble at school again or make another bad grade, my tablet is being thrown away. WhichI found completely unfair sincde I saved my money to get that tablet with my own money. One morning we got into an argument and he told my brother about it. I wasn't suppose to have my tablet bt because I was helping my music teacher with a program we were planning I was able to keep it. My brother was already hme and said we needed to have a "talk." He questioned why I "talked back to mom" and "lied about needing my tablet." My brother lifts weights and has muscles...me, i'm really skinny and have no muscles at all. He beat me like a drum that day and felt nothing and said he didn't beat me up he just pushed me...he beat me till I fell on the florr and continusly punched me then stood over me as if making it known he's superior to me. That moment is the bain to my excistence, I can still feel the fear I felt as he first punched me.

I had another encounter with another one of my brother Dominic (I think thats how you spell his name ins) wher ehe told me I try to over sleep and neep to stop asking for more time t sleep. I told him he coudn't tell me what to do and he slapped me out my chair and my sister, Monique, fought him off for me.

My only real favorite family are my uncle Tony's family, My cousns Brittney and Courtney, and my sister Monique. I get allong with them really well. Not to mention I have 6 siblings in all, and I only get along with 1...

[Living For Love]

Sorry to say, but the situation you described is a really strong example of abuse. If it gets worse, you should contact the police. Your brothers don't have any authority on you, you can't let them treat you like a punch bag. Just focus on your school, and stick together to your sister Monique and to the other family members you like. I really don't want to be rude, but your family seems a bit disfunctional because maybe your dad is absent, so your older brothers feel the need to make themselves superior and be the head of the family. You could also try to be at home the less time possible, without making that affect you on your studies. Try to ignore them a bit, they feed of your reaction, so simply treat them like dirt, pretend they're not there.

[sqishy]

Sorry to say, but the situation you described is a really strong example of abuse. If it gets worse, you should contact the police. Your brothers don't have any authority on you, you can't let them treat you like a punch bag. Just focus on your school, and stick together to your sister Monique and to the other family members you like. I really don't want to be rude, but your family seems a bit disfunctional because maybe your dad is absent, so your older brothers feel the need to make themselves superior and be the head of the family. You could also try to be at home the less time possible, without making that affect you on your studies. Try to ignore them a bit, they feed of your reaction, so simply treat them like dirt, pretend they're not there.

I agree with this. Take control while you have some.