Major Dilemma Please Help :(

[TheAverageJoe]

Hey sorry im new and i know this is really long so read it if you want help me and thanks in advance

last summer whenever my friends and I were bored we would use omegle and talk to random people and for the most part we met the usual crowd,......until we met her, we exchanged kiks and went on with our lives

before summer ended, I kiked her with my friends kik and found ourselves talking everyday now for 2 months straight, we have gotten really close, we both know where each other lives and phone numbers and found out our birthdays are only few days apart, and we have so much in common, we love to travel and even have the same phobias for the most part. ... one day she flat out said she done with other guys and wants to marry me, of course she s not entirely serious bc she's 14, but I know shes really close to me, I feel sooooo soo bad for what I am doing, this whole time she thinks she talking to my friend the good looking jock and im the average unathletic kid not nearly as good looking as he is, I feel so bad when she say hi to my friends name and not mine, what can I do??? How can I tell her that shes actually talking to me??? I only lied to her about my name and my appearance everything else was the truth, I never took advantage of her even when she was little drunk, what do I do? I really love her honestly and dont wanna break her heart, I tried stop talking to her but she refuses to go almost to the point of tears she really doesnt wanna see me go, I nudged her about if she wouldve talked to me if I wasnt goodlooking and she said she isnt shallow and likes me for my qualities much more but I know she ll be really shocked because the guy shes been talking to the guy she almost confides in isnt exactly the "guy"
lately we ve been skypeing, voice call of course, she occasionally cams but i just tell my cams broke but i wanna turn it on so bad
How do I tell her the real me(the appearance and name, everything else about me is the truth) and is our age difference okay? Shes turning 15 and im turning 18 (birthdays few days apart) in our standards of teens this is little weird but shes so mature for her age, she parties but never goes wild and never had sex or anything except gave a hj, also I live in Boston and she lives in uk :(
I am so upset with myself every time she tell me she wants me to be her bf it tears me a little inside how could I have not told her this long? I might even contemplate killing myself before making her that upset

Sorry for the long story but thanks for all those who help :)

[Living For Love]

First of all, it's really unlikely that you two will ever meet in real life, maybe only when you are adults. You have an ocean between you two, remember that.

Second, you can tell her you lied about your name because you don't like it, or because you wouldn't just feel comfortable revealing your own name on Kik or Skype or whetever. I think it's a bit worse the fact that you lied about your appearance, but your 18, man, every 15 year old girl likes a mature 18 year old guy like you. You may just tell it straight to her, but you know how some girls are, if you told her you were blond with blue eyes and now you tell her you have dark hair and dark eyes, that will have an impact.

But, that's still not the worst part. The worst is that she won't trust you the same way. You need to apologize a lot, tell her you really like her and that it was the first time you had a relationship of this sort, and that you were just a bit afraid of the consequences.

That's the only thing I can think right now, sorry if it's not a good advice. Good luck. :)

[Joey.]

If your wishing to continue this relationship
You must tell the truth.
Either way your going to be a punch in the face.
But honesty is the best way to have trust. (Not that she will trust you right away)
Let her know that you yourself are upset that
you have lied and didn't mean for things to go as far as it has.
Although you have some locational problems,
There is a such thing as Dating online, but thats a mess in it's self.
But theres no saying, in the future you guys could meet up.
If you really care about this girl, you will let her know the truth.
Think about how much better it will be if she does accept you,
Skyping, more contact, and hopefully trust in the future.

Goodluck, I hope all goes well! :)

[ashdyn]

I feel sooo bad for you bro. But it could be worse. You still have the opportunity to tell her the truth and save the relationship you guys have.

Just tell her what you told us basically. You started out using your friend's kik cause you didn't have one. Just say you didn't expect anything serious to come of it but when you had that spark you were just afraid to mess things up. Tell her you know what you did was wrong and that it really hurt you waiting that long to tell her the truth. Make sure she knows that everything you've said is genuine and that you know it will be hard for her to trust you again but that you're willing to earn it back.

PLUS you said your friend was attractive and athletic. You didn't say you were ugly or insanely obese lol I think you're just selling yourself short. She said she'd like you no matter what you looked like because she already was attracted to the personality you presented. Just apologize a ton. I hope everything works out for you.

You can message me if you need a little pep talk before you do it so you don't back out :)