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turtlescantwrite
October 27th, 2013, 01:42 PM
A few months ago, I experienced the lowest point of my depression. I wanted to move out to my grandparents, to safety. My parents were jobless, and not attempting to find any work, my step dad took out his anger on me while my mom watched. The house was infested with bed bugs and we had no food. So I left for my grandparents. my mom and I fought about it for months, She just wouldnt listen. I even threatened going to court.
By the end of july, My brother became sick because of the bed bugs, I felt so bad. My step dad called me selfish and a whore. Then,my mom stopped talking to me. I was becoming stressed and secluded myself. I even broke up with my boyfriend of 2 1/2 years because I wanted to be alone. It was my lowest point.
One week before school started she let me move. I dont know what happened. She doesnt talk to me though, and Im still sad, and there are days where I just need to be alone. I self harm and I dont talk, but thats me right now. I really feel better, but its hard climbing to happy.

Derryck
October 27th, 2013, 01:46 PM
That's where we come in :D. Do you have meany friends irl?

turtlescantwrite
October 27th, 2013, 01:50 PM
No, im socially awkward. Its hard for me to talk to people, which is why I love the internet. heh.

Derryck
October 27th, 2013, 01:53 PM
No, im socially awkward. Its hard for me to talk to people, which is why I love the internet. heh.

I think you need to figure out what you are most depressed about before you can do anything. Really search yourself. ;)

turtlescantwrite
October 27th, 2013, 02:24 PM
I agree. thank you:)

Derryck
October 27th, 2013, 02:44 PM
I agree. thank you:)

Anytime.

ashlee45
October 30th, 2013, 05:06 AM
Its sad to read your experience.. Actually, I am also patient of ?Depression..

Elishakayne
October 31st, 2013, 05:13 AM
This can happen to any one so don't feel pathetic. Try to be calm and slowly give your relationship a fresh start both with your boyfriend and mother. Let's hope for good.

turtlescantwrite
October 31st, 2013, 07:15 PM
I have been talking to my ex for a while, He completely understood, and saw it coming.. its hard that I hurt him, but at least im not leading him on. Thank you for your support, every one of you guys help me. Thank you.

Fanta_Lover44
November 1st, 2013, 04:39 PM
Hey, it's really good that you told your ex what happened. I know you may be socially awkward but a friend or two will boost your mood, i am quite awkward but one day i just said a random intrest out load and suprisingly i started a new friendship, it may sound like that was easy but its not always. You need to keep your self strong. I'm here if you need me.

Miri
November 1st, 2013, 05:41 PM
I think that a fresh start will really be good for you, and you can take some time to "re-discover" yourself. It seems as if you've been dealing with a lot, and I respect you for wanting that to change while finding happiness at the same time.

Good luck, and we're here for you if you need us!