XNonsensicalX
October 27th, 2013, 04:56 AM
I am a Senior in highschool with 3 AP classes. I had a normal level science class, but got so frustrated at the pace that I asked to be put into honors chemistry. Which brings me to 3 AP classes and 2 honors. I also work in retail to get money for college.
I find that when I'm not studying, I feel guilty and anxious. Its like I'm wasting my entire life every 5 minutes I'm not doing something beneficial. Like, even right now I feel awkward not studying or doing work.
I feel like an ultimate loser whenever I get anything below a 90 percent, and I'm comparing myself to other people all the time. I'm still uncomfortable with the fact that a friend of mine graduated having been in 5 AP classes and I'm only in 3.
I took a college course over the summer, and I only got a B. It hurt a lot to see that and I haven't given the transcript to my highschool because I'm too ashamed.
Its like I'm stuck on autopilot and I can't shut it off. I joined the newspaper club because I felt like I have too much free time, and that wasn't productive enough for me.
Its like I'm trapped, and I am sacrificing a lot for it (hanging out with friends, playing games, watching TV)
I can't help but wonder if I'm doing the right thing to myself.
I find that when I'm not studying, I feel guilty and anxious. Its like I'm wasting my entire life every 5 minutes I'm not doing something beneficial. Like, even right now I feel awkward not studying or doing work.
I feel like an ultimate loser whenever I get anything below a 90 percent, and I'm comparing myself to other people all the time. I'm still uncomfortable with the fact that a friend of mine graduated having been in 5 AP classes and I'm only in 3.
I took a college course over the summer, and I only got a B. It hurt a lot to see that and I haven't given the transcript to my highschool because I'm too ashamed.
Its like I'm stuck on autopilot and I can't shut it off. I joined the newspaper club because I felt like I have too much free time, and that wasn't productive enough for me.
Its like I'm trapped, and I am sacrificing a lot for it (hanging out with friends, playing games, watching TV)
I can't help but wonder if I'm doing the right thing to myself.