XNonsensicalX
October 27th, 2013, 04:44 AM
I lost a close friend in a car accident 7 years ago. She was a passenger in the car. She was a large inspiration to myself and a lot of other people and the loss was a tremendous hit on the whole community.
Though it has been so long and I have done so much since then, I can't get over the event.
I get scared at the prospect of driving, even at age 18. I am being pressured by a lot of people to get my permit, but I know that will lead to them trying to get me to drive and I just can't even think about driving without thinking of her and the immense loss that driving can bring. I'm totally fine being a passenger in the car, and I'm not nearly as devastated at the idea of dying in a crash as I would be with killing someone else in a crash. I can't handle guilt, or the idea of causing the same amount of anguish that was felt for my friend by family and community members.
I get snappy and easily bothered whenever someone tries to get me to learn how to drive, and I know its ridiculous to worry to this extent, but I can't shake the awful feeling that I get.
Though it has been so long and I have done so much since then, I can't get over the event.
I get scared at the prospect of driving, even at age 18. I am being pressured by a lot of people to get my permit, but I know that will lead to them trying to get me to drive and I just can't even think about driving without thinking of her and the immense loss that driving can bring. I'm totally fine being a passenger in the car, and I'm not nearly as devastated at the idea of dying in a crash as I would be with killing someone else in a crash. I can't handle guilt, or the idea of causing the same amount of anguish that was felt for my friend by family and community members.
I get snappy and easily bothered whenever someone tries to get me to learn how to drive, and I know its ridiculous to worry to this extent, but I can't shake the awful feeling that I get.