My Daddys Gone

[turtlescantwrite]

I dont think the ache Ive had in my chest has completely left ever. Im not sure I was able to figure out what it was when I was seven, and my biological dad just.. He came back. When I was seven, I met the man I had seen in pictures, the one I heard so many bad stories about.
It came out of nowhere, HE came out of nowhere. I NEVER met this man. But the court said I had to.
So we visited. I got to know him, He made me feel like a daddys girl. He called me his daughter, gave me the hugs I needed said he loved me.Then just like that, he left. Gone.
"Why?" I ask my mom.
"He never cared. He just wanted to hurt me." My mom said.
I cried, I cried so much. Couldn't there have been a better thing to say? Was it true? He wanted to hurt my mom through me? He didnt care?
It was the beginning of so much agony, I felt so used. Then he came back. The same process happened, over and over. He took my trust, my heart, my love. Everything.
I dont believe in love, I hate affection, I dont trust.
I believe in sadness though.

[Luminous]

I'm not sure what to say, honey. If legally you have to see him every __ amount of time, but you don't want to, go back to court. I know it hurts and it is so hard and a rough process to go through, but if you genuinely do not like or trust your father and don't want to see him again, YOU have the power to make that happen, you just have to pull the trigger and do that. If you ever need someone to talk to, my VM is always there. xo

[turtlescantwrite]

I just needed that off my chest. Hes been on my mind all day. Im 17 and havent seen him in four years.
One would wonder what the heck happened.
Thank you for your support:)

[Hollywood]

Hannah offered some great advice, I don't really have much to add to that. I'm sorry that you've had to through all of this turmoil with your father. In a sense, I know how you feel. My dad was never there for me growing up, then he suddenly started showing up when I was 11 or 12. He led me to believe he was always going to be there for me, and that I finally had a father. Then he just stopped caring, barely talked to me and then blamed it all on me.

I'm over it now, but I know issues like this are tough to deal with. Stay strong, and I hope things get better soon. :)

[conniption]

I don't have the best relationship with my own dad, but I can't imagine not having him around. It's sad that your dad would leave you like that.

[Musical_Booktiger]

My dad does the same shit to me. But he robs banks everytime he leaves. Ahem, Jaces words, "To love is to destroy, and to be loved is to be the one destroyed."

[Fanta_Lover44]

Hey my realtionship with dad is a bit worse then this, its all very complicated but i know what you're going through, i put up with it all the time it's either mum and step dad telling me how my biological dad doesn't care about me or its the otherway round. I'm not sure what to say apart from stay strong and im here to listen if you need it. :)

[turtlescantwrite]

Thanks much, Its both sad and rewarding knowing im not alone in this.