Paladino
October 20th, 2013, 10:59 PM
As most people do, I DID have a circle of friends, a very large circle of friends I might add, of about 12-17 people, in the last year that circle has went from 12-17 to about 5. It has saddened me very very much, and I know I'm not the only one still left in the circle that cares as since this has happened I have had the same conversation with the remaining people individually. This conversation goes something along the lines of "Oh do you think M will start talking to us again?" "Ever since his girlfriend got pregnant, he hasn't once tried to talk to me" "E has also had minimal contact with any of us". It is really starting to get to me!
I'm sure that at least one person who has read this has had this happen to them before, in fact I'm sure probably most of you has. Some of you might be thinking "oh stop being such a vagina and get over it" yet others might be thinking "i completely understand", I suppose in a way its part of growing up. Obviously in your circle of friends, there will be some you like more than others and its the ones I do like more than the others that are still there, but there is a couple of the ones I would have considered best friends at one point that are also starting to "fade away" if you know what I mean and that is what has started to bother me the most. Like I said there is roughly about 5 of us left in this circle, 3 of these people I can trust with near enough anything, one of the other ones I used to trust with anything but he broke that trust and I don't really feel comfortable explaining why but whatever. One of the boys I can trust with anything is my girlfriends brother and I would consider him one of, if not my best friend as we were really close before me and his sister started and he has told me he is glad that it is me that is his sisters boyfriend and he has told me his parents feel the same way, hearing him say that made me very happy.
I am not quite sure how the rest of them feel about each other in terms of if they would class each other as best friends or just friends or whatever as this is just my side of the story, but we all are not as close as we once were in the past. There isn't really a point to this thread apart from me clearing my head, and tbh I'm not even sure if half the shit I have typed makes sense.
Am I just over thinking? Am I just paranoid to lose friends? the rest of the people in the 12-17 mentioned before I would talk to and say "we need a catch up" when both of us know fine well it aint gonna happen, just a thing you say to old friends I suppose, Some of the memories I have of all of these people I will take to my grave as I have had some of my funniest drinking nights out with, the closer friends I have had the deepest chats with about everything. I guess I am just afraid of growing up.
I'm sure that at least one person who has read this has had this happen to them before, in fact I'm sure probably most of you has. Some of you might be thinking "oh stop being such a vagina and get over it" yet others might be thinking "i completely understand", I suppose in a way its part of growing up. Obviously in your circle of friends, there will be some you like more than others and its the ones I do like more than the others that are still there, but there is a couple of the ones I would have considered best friends at one point that are also starting to "fade away" if you know what I mean and that is what has started to bother me the most. Like I said there is roughly about 5 of us left in this circle, 3 of these people I can trust with near enough anything, one of the other ones I used to trust with anything but he broke that trust and I don't really feel comfortable explaining why but whatever. One of the boys I can trust with anything is my girlfriends brother and I would consider him one of, if not my best friend as we were really close before me and his sister started and he has told me he is glad that it is me that is his sisters boyfriend and he has told me his parents feel the same way, hearing him say that made me very happy.
I am not quite sure how the rest of them feel about each other in terms of if they would class each other as best friends or just friends or whatever as this is just my side of the story, but we all are not as close as we once were in the past. There isn't really a point to this thread apart from me clearing my head, and tbh I'm not even sure if half the shit I have typed makes sense.
Am I just over thinking? Am I just paranoid to lose friends? the rest of the people in the 12-17 mentioned before I would talk to and say "we need a catch up" when both of us know fine well it aint gonna happen, just a thing you say to old friends I suppose, Some of the memories I have of all of these people I will take to my grave as I have had some of my funniest drinking nights out with, the closer friends I have had the deepest chats with about everything. I guess I am just afraid of growing up.