I feel like such a coward

[ksdnfkfr]

There are so many times I see a thread posted here with someone on the brink looking for help, and I shy away from them. I am afraid that reading what they are dealing with will trigger something and I will have a relapse.
I am two months free from self harm after a lot of therapy and even medication and I am so paranoid that I will have a relapse. I just had to write this because feel so bad about being afraid to help others and only looking out for myself.

[Amazerful]

You aren't being a coward, you are just doing what you know will help you

[NeuroTiger]

There are so many times I see a thread posted here with someone on the brink looking for help, and I shy away from them. I am afraid that reading what they are dealing with will trigger something and I will have a relapse.
I am two months free from self harm after a lot of therapy and even medication and I am so paranoid that I will have a relapse. I just had to write this because feel so bad about being afraid to help others and only looking out for myself.

I feel same, sometimes.

[Blood]

Sometimes when you're healing you can't help other people. You have to focus on your recovery. You're not a coward.

[Castle of Glass]

your not a coward. it is normal. though i tend to help quite a bit, there are days where i am like: fuck helping any one else. those are either the days when i am either extremely triggered or extremely down were helping people will trigger me

Just stay strong. You know where to find the list of ways to try to stop. You can do this.

[Gwen]

Some people are here for help, some are here to give it. You don't need to worry about it if your still having problems yourself. Being afraid of a relapse doesn't make you a coward. Looking after yourself is a good thing.

[ksdnfkfr]

Thanks everyone. I was just feeling really down on
myself that day. I have to remind myself sometimes
that I'm only 13, plus I'm still fairly fresh out of recovery.
I realize when my brain says, "don't go there" it's for a
reason. I am so glad there are those of you who can
field stuff I'm not ready for. Sad also because I know of
the kind of hell you have to deal with.

[1_21Guns]

Sometimes you just have to do what's best for yourself, those things don't make you a coward and they never will. It's perfectly okay to need to look after yourself sometimes :hug3:

[Mynick]

If you think that something will trigger you, just avoid it, don't feel bad about.
I did the same things during this past week, i was feeling a bit more down so i stayed away from here.
Don't feel bad if you are helping yourself, you are NOT a coward.

[Yugen]

I feel the exact same way. I'd love to be of help but I find it really hard to do so. Just worry about what's best for YOU.

[Katiya]

Some times you have to help your self before you can help others. ;)

[Luminous]

You aren't a coward. You can't help everyone, and out of everyone, you should come first. For all you know these people could be trolls, they could have just been being dramatic. You need to take care of yourself before the rest of VT.

[mermaidfairy]

You aren't a coward for that. You have to take care of yourself before you can ever think about taking care of yourself, and you don't deserve to trigger yourself. If, in the future, you feel able to help someone out and want to give it a shot, do, but don't feel like you are a bad person for feeling the need to take care of yourself. You deserve to be cared for, too!

[Keats]

There's nothing cowardly about putting your feelings first, make sure you're okay before you focus on other people - thats the most important thing when struggling with things like self-harm

[Dark Unicorn]

I think you are incredibly brave for posting that.Look at it this way: if you take care of yourself,the people around you and those that love you don't have to worry about you.And sometimes,in order to help others and present the best version of yourself possible to the world you need to work on yourself.All I see is a broken soul giving himself time to heal.If ever you need someone to talk to,I'm only a message away.Best wishes with your recovery.

[CabbageMedul]

Save yourself before you save others. :neutral:

[AlexOnToast]

I think by making this post you have proved that you are way more than some coward. You are genuinely a good person Ezra, dont let anything lead you to believe otherwise. :hugs:

[Tarannosaurus]

I think by making this post you have proved that you are way more than some coward. You are genuinely a good person Ezra, dont let anything lead you to believe otherwise. :hugs:

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