Alone...

[pashathedrummer94]

I feel so alone. I made my best friend mad at me and she will never talk to me again, no one wants to talk to me. i have nothing, no future, no friends, the only thing i have is a family who say mean things about my situation. i have no comfort at all in the position im in. i sit alone most of the time writing, but it just makes me feel worse. I cant take it anymore. I just want to end it, but i promised my best friend i wouldnt do anything like that. i dont know what to do anymore. i hate everything.

[wyatt]

You are never alone. I'm in college now, my first semester. It will all get better and I can tell you that from experience. I used to be where you are at, and I know that it looks bleak and hopeless, but it really isn't. I am always available on skype if you need someone to vent to. Please just give it the best that you have got right now. Not everything is as bad as it seems, and if it is; there is *ALWAYS* a brighter future.
-Wyatt

[ksdnfkfr]

I have this same problem because of autism. A friendless outcast. You need to find happiness and enjoyment outside of people being involved. Be your own friend. Do what you want to do when you want to do it, without others getting in the way, or needing others. And let's face it, we are not truly completely alone. I just feels that way and it sucks, but life isn't perfect for anyone and everyone is hurting one way or another, and most people feel unloved, despite how many so called friends they have.

[pashathedrummer94]

I have this same problem because of autism. A friendless outcast. You need to find happiness and enjoyment outside of people being involved. Be your own friend. Do what you want to do when you want to do it, without others getting in the way, or needing others. And let's face it, we are not truly completely alone. I just feels that way and it sucks, but life isn't perfect for anyone and everyone is hurting one way or another, and most people feel unloved, despite how many so called friends they have.

I used to be able to do that, but i feel like a bad friend to even myself. i have autism too and i just can't talk to people. i never make friends, and the only friends i used to make were because of friends i made when i was really young who came to me when i played alone in the classroom and out of fear of hurting their feelings i would become their friend. now i dont trust myself to make the right judgements to make new friends and i feel so much anxiety trying to get on facebook and reach out for fear they will think i am weak or needy and never talk to me. it seems worse to me to try and be ignored than to not try at all because then i can say that there might be someone there.
But thanks to both of you. it means a lot right now to have some friendly contact.

[ksdnfkfr]

I used to be able to do that, but i feel like a bad friend to even myself. i have autism too and i just can't talk to people. i never make friends, and the only friends i used to make were because of friends i made when i was really young who came to me when i played alone in the classroom and out of fear of hurting their feelings i would become their friend. now i dont trust myself to make the right judgements to make new friends and i feel so much anxiety trying to get on facebook and reach out for fear they will think i am weak or needy and never talk to me. it seems worse to me to try and be ignored than to not try at all because then i can say that there might be someone there.
But thanks to both of you. it means a lot right now to have some friendly contact.

Just keep in mind that this is all due to a disability and not some kind of failure on your part. And we are both at the worst age for it, when social awareness really starts to kick in. It is easier to feel more comfortable with little kids and grown ups, but when it comes to peers, we are afraid we will say or do something stupid. And unfortunately that often is not a completely unrealistic fear. I am sorry about your situation with your friend. I only have only one myself, and I am always afraid I will lose him because of my problems.

I am finding joining these forums has helped a lot in not feeling quite as alone and I have even managed to feel like one of the "cool kids" sort of here and in another forum like this one. I joined up with these forums in hopes they might help me out some with developing social skills . I mentioned that somewhere and an older autistic kid said he joined for that reason too and it did indeed help him some. Feel free to hit me up anytime. You know you do not have to worry about what I will think of you, because we are in the same boat. Take care.

[Soulless]

What do you want?
More friends?
To be happy with being alone?

[JamesSuperBoy]

I used to be able to do that, but i feel like a bad friend to even myself. i have autism too and i just can't talk to people. i never make friends, and the only friends i used to make were because of friends i made when i was really young who came to me when i played alone in the classroom and out of fear of hurting their feelings i would become their friend. now i dont trust myself to make the right judgements to make new friends and i feel so much anxiety trying to get on facebook and reach out for fear they will think i am weak or needy and never talk to me. it seems worse to me to try and be ignored than to not try at all because then i can say that there might be someone there.
But thanks to both of you. it means a lot right now to have some friendly contact.

It can be so hard - but please keep trying. Is facebook the only thing you can try. But remember loads of people on face book post up stuff which is not really true - I am just saying sometimes it looks like everybody as loads of friends is out doing stuff when that is not the case. Trust yourself - is there a way to meet others maybe out of school a club or something. Maybe look to meeting people first then think about friends.