A friend of mine...

[survivor]

Friday my friend was acting weird. I pulled him aside at lunch and he told me that he wants to start cutting again. After this he pulled out a sharpened screwdriver and a knife from his bag and put them in mine. He told my he was too tempted and couldn't hold onto them. For the past three years he has been the one supporting me when I fall, and now he's starting to slip again. I honestly don't remember the last time he relapsed. Last night he sent me a text about wanting to cut really bad. It basically said he was on the edge what was one year or many years or a day. He talked about slitting his wrists and drinking. He said he hopes that even if he falls I will remain strong.

So now I know for sure he wants to cut again, I'm afraid he might even be suicidal. I have his blades in my house now and now they're tempting me. I don't know what to do. If I tell my school he will never forgive me, because he's heard my stories of the hospital (we have the baker act in Florida) and we've both sworn to each other ( Freshman year) not to tell the school or parents.

What do I do?

[Castle of Glass]

get rid of the blade first. yea, i know about the baker act, california has something similar, 5150 act. So not the best idea to talk to someone. But YOU spend time with him after school, have a chat going with him. Make sure to keep his mind away from SH and his thoughts. fight it together. Write letters to each other(cheesy ik, but it could work). Do the butterfly project on each other's arms, because if someone else draws the butterfly, it is extra special.

[survivor]

I talk with him all the time, but I'm not sure I can be much help this time. I'm only seven days out from the last time I cut myself up bad so steering clear of the topic will be hard, but avoiding him will only make things worse.

[LouBerry]

If you think your friend may be suicidal, or a real danger to himself, you own it to him to tell someone and get him some help.

If you think his parents would freak, or if there is a real reason not to do it, then that's up to your digression, but if you are worried that he'll hate you, stop.

If he really is suicidal, and he goes through with it, and you knew and didn't do what you could to stop it, you have to live with that.

If he's really your friend, he isn't going to hate you for getting him help.

[survivor]

It's just the hospital here. When I was baker acted for being suicidal, they didn't try to help me. Most of the time I was in solitary confinement with drugs in my system for "acting out" half of the time I didn't know what I did wrong. The place made me worse and it was my friends that kept me going so I honestly don't want him there, because I don't want him to have to go through that. When you are in that hospital, the staff controls who you can talk to, if even your parents can visit you, how much you can eat and how much you have to eat, how much time you get to study, the level of security, if you are allowed in the courtyard, even if you're allowed to have a hair brush (for the first week I wasn't).

[Katiya]

It's just the hospital here. When I was baker acted for being suicidal, they didn't try to help me. Most of the time I was in solitary confinement with drugs in my system for "acting out" half of the time I didn't know what I did wrong. The place made me worse and it was my friends that kept me going so I honestly don't want him there, because I don't want him to have to go through that. When you are in that hospital, the staff controls who you can talk to, if even your parents can visit you, how much you can eat and how much you have to eat, how much time you get to study, the level of security, if you are allowed in the courtyard, even if you're allowed to have a hair brush (for the first week I wasn't).

On God! That sounds just like the cluster fuck of a mental unit I went to! At mine they rape you with fingers, probes and a vaginal speculum whether your virgin or not. As well as treat you like fucking shit and everything else. Ours we aren't even allowed out or to even exercise at all. One fucking time and I swear to GOD I will kill my self by cop before I ever go back in there again! Its a Horrible horrible place!


What is the baker act? I think we may have one but idk

[Katiya]

Can I pm you survivor? I don't have the posts yet as a couple got merged but I'll be to 100 by tomorrow. ?

[survivor]

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