Nothing Matters

[PerpetualImperfexion]

So this all stems from the fact that a I'm a perfectionist. I'm trying to break away from this because it's impossible to be perfect or please everyone and I'm disappointed literally 99% of the time with myself. In breaking away though I ended up on the completely opposite side of the spectrum.

I basically have come to the conclusion that nothing matters. We're made of cells. Cells are just a series of chemical reactions. So really we're just a series of very well coordinated chemical reactions being directed by electrical signals in our brain.

In 80, 90, 100 years for most of us what we did in our life time won't even matter anymore. Some of us might make a major impact on a few people, but when they die all that work goes down the toilet. Some of us might make a huge contribution to the human race, but when we destroy ourselves or the sun explodes or the universe freezes over, in the end nothing will matter.

Now I realize I'm focusing on the end. It is a bit like reading the last page of a book and deciding not to read it. So let's talk about the guts of life. People talk about how it will get better. Really though, even if things improve, we'll all be working for our entire lives, dealing with just as much if not more stress than we do now. Sure occasionally we'll come upon a moment where we're happy. But happiness is just a chemical reaction.

For me what I'm looking at is a jigsaw puzzle. I hate these. You put together a thousand or so tiny pieces only to rip all your work back up. The only difference is that some puzzle pieces are equivalent to stress so they're either on fire or electrified or really sharp or heavy. Life is just a torturous puzzle. Why complete it when in the end it will be destroyed and only bring us pain. Sure the sense of achievement you get when you finish the puzzle is equivocal to happiness, but I feel like I want to opt out of this happiness. It just seems like it would be easier to quit.

EDIT: It isn't a matter of whether or not I'm important to the human race, it's a matter of whether the human race is important. If it isn't, then why try to make a difference in it?

[Mynick]

So really we're just a series of very well coordinated chemical reactions being directed by electrical signals in our brain.
The message moves through the neuron through the exchange of electrical charges in the axon and goes from neuron to neuron throgh synaptic clefts by neurotransmitters. So eletrical and hormonal.

In 80, 90, 100 years for most of us what we did in our life time won't even matter anymore. Some of us might make a major impact on a few people, but when they die all that work goes down the toilet. Some of us might make a huge contribution to the human race, but when we destroy ourselves or the sun explodes or the universe freezes over, in the end nothing will matter.

Some people live more in 20 years than others in eighty. Its not the time that matters, its the person. And we dont do it for society, or for the human kind, we do it for ourselfs.

Now I realize I'm focusing on the end. It is a bit like reading the last page of a book and deciding not to read it. So let's talk about the guts of life. People talk about how it will get better. Really though, even if things improve, we'll all be working for our entire lives, dealing with just as much if not more stress than we do now. Sure occasionally we'll come upon a moment where we're happy. But happiness is just a chemical reaction.

In the end everything is done because of some reaction. And this tiny little happy things that you are saying that don't matter, those things are what makes everything worth it. Its why we do what we do.

For me what I'm looking at is a jigsaw puzzle. I hate these. You put together a thousand or so tiny pieces only to rip all your work back up. The only difference is that some puzzle pieces are equivalent to stress so they're either on fire or electrified or really sharp or heavy. Life is just a torturous puzzle. Why complete it when in the end it will be destroyed and only bring us pain. Sure the sense of achievement you get when you finish the puzzle is equivocal to happiness, but I feel like I want to opt out of this happiness. It just seems like it would be easier to quit.

EDIT: It isn't a matter of whether or not I'm important to the human race, it's a matter of whether the human race is important. If it isn't, then why try to make a difference in it?
Why do it? For the sake of doing it, for the fun, for the pleasure for whatever moves you. What we got besides that?

[sqishy]

So this all stems from the fact that a I'm a perfectionist. I'm trying to break away from this because it's impossible to be perfect or please everyone and I'm disappointed literally 99% of the time with myself. In breaking away though I ended up on the completely opposite side of the spectrum.

I basically have come to the conclusion that nothing matters. We're made of cells. Cells are just a series of chemical reactions. So really we're just a series of very well coordinated chemical reactions being directed by electrical signals in our brain.

In 80, 90, 100 years for most of us what we did in our life time won't even matter anymore. Some of us might make a major impact on a few people, but when they die all that work goes down the toilet. Some of us might make a huge contribution to the human race, but when we destroy ourselves or the sun explodes or the universe freezes over, in the end nothing will matter.

Now I realize I'm focusing on the end. It is a bit like reading the last page of a book and deciding not to read it. So let's talk about the guts of life. People talk about how it will get better. Really though, even if things improve, we'll all be working for our entire lives, dealing with just as much if not more stress than we do now. Sure occasionally we'll come upon a moment where we're happy. But happiness is just a chemical reaction.

For me what I'm looking at is a jigsaw puzzle. I hate these. You put together a thousand or so tiny pieces only to rip all your work back up. The only difference is that some puzzle pieces are equivalent to stress so they're either on fire or electrified or really sharp or heavy. Life is just a torturous puzzle. Why complete it when in the end it will be destroyed and only bring us pain. Sure the sense of achievement you get when you finish the puzzle is equivocal to happiness, but I feel like I want to opt out of this happiness. It just seems like it would be easier to quit.

EDIT: It isn't a matter of whether or not I'm important to the human race, it's a matter of whether the human race is important. If it isn't, then why try to make a difference in it?

You can say that nothing matters and leave it at that, and not really live. Or you can see life as something where there are no logical rules. We make the world by seeing it a certain way. We may be a group of cells, but we have achieved a lot with the world we are in. If nothing matters, there is nothing to lose. We start and end with the unknown, that appears as nothingness. Don't define life by what lies beyond it. If you see nothing as true, everything is permitted. Life has no mathematical formula to determine things. Logic and experience are required. Try to experience life, not think about it. Be in the present. RIGHT HERE AND NOW. There is so much more to see. Make your life more than just cells continuing to exist. See it differently. It's not the quantity of life, it is the quality.

:D