CosmicNoodle
October 2nd, 2013, 03:37 PM
Hey guy's
I have a horrible feeling all the time
That i am a disappointment and a failure, i have always hated feeling that i am a failure but lately that is how a feel all the time (This is also part of a horrible dream i have that i will explain now)
About that dream, i have a horrible recurring nightmare. In it i am in a village near my home, where all my friends live, i am there with my friends and next thing i know everyone is gone, everyone in the village is gone leaving it a ghost town, i walk to my nans home, i open the front door and walk in, then i go into the study, in the study is my Granddads ashes in the wooden box where they sit IRL, but in that room is my granddad sitting on the seat that lives in there for when people visit him, he looks up at me, dead eyed and says one thing "You are a disappointment" then he is gone, throughout the hole dream it is as if i am watching through an over the solder view, there is nothing i can do to stop what happens, this nightmare happens usually about 2-3 times a month and is scary all the way through.
It's not as if i have had a bad relationship with him because when he was alive he loved me and everyone knew it, i was visiting him all the time, i lived with him for 2 years when we where moving house, he loved me and i loved him. After this dream i usually wake up sweating and crying uncontrollably. The first few times this was manageable but lately it is becoming very upsetting as i have yet to properly get over his death and seeing him alive again and thinking he thought i was a failure is more upsetting than i though possible. I hate it and it is starting to make me afraid to go to bed.
I have no idea at all of how to deal with this, i am afraid to talk to my family because i am afraid they will think me stupid or insane, what can i do to stop them?
I really don't want to go to my parents about this so want to know how to stop them by myself, all the ways i have tried so far have not worked at all, do you guys know of any ways? :confused:
I have a horrible feeling all the time
That i am a disappointment and a failure, i have always hated feeling that i am a failure but lately that is how a feel all the time (This is also part of a horrible dream i have that i will explain now)
About that dream, i have a horrible recurring nightmare. In it i am in a village near my home, where all my friends live, i am there with my friends and next thing i know everyone is gone, everyone in the village is gone leaving it a ghost town, i walk to my nans home, i open the front door and walk in, then i go into the study, in the study is my Granddads ashes in the wooden box where they sit IRL, but in that room is my granddad sitting on the seat that lives in there for when people visit him, he looks up at me, dead eyed and says one thing "You are a disappointment" then he is gone, throughout the hole dream it is as if i am watching through an over the solder view, there is nothing i can do to stop what happens, this nightmare happens usually about 2-3 times a month and is scary all the way through.
It's not as if i have had a bad relationship with him because when he was alive he loved me and everyone knew it, i was visiting him all the time, i lived with him for 2 years when we where moving house, he loved me and i loved him. After this dream i usually wake up sweating and crying uncontrollably. The first few times this was manageable but lately it is becoming very upsetting as i have yet to properly get over his death and seeing him alive again and thinking he thought i was a failure is more upsetting than i though possible. I hate it and it is starting to make me afraid to go to bed.
I have no idea at all of how to deal with this, i am afraid to talk to my family because i am afraid they will think me stupid or insane, what can i do to stop them?
I really don't want to go to my parents about this so want to know how to stop them by myself, all the ways i have tried so far have not worked at all, do you guys know of any ways? :confused: