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Katiya
October 2nd, 2013, 12:19 PM
So I've had this 'friend' I guess for quite some time. But she's been different lately sense she moved away to another state. I was a hated kid and she was one of the few that would associate with me at school because she was also an out cast at the time. But I went to visit her this spring and she was really annoyed by me. I was too loud or dressed too weird or too something all the time. She kept insisting that I've changed for the worse and need to stop. I politely suggested maybe she is the one who changed and she got mad. I dropped it. But I don't think it is I that have changed as she use to like me for my unique personality and taste which hasn't changed at all to my knowledge. I don't have any 'friends' other than her and she knows this. For the last months sense my visit in may she doesn't contact me hardly ever. I text her once a week or so and she waits weeks before sending me a random message about a completely dif subject. I call and leave a mssg and she never once will call back but expects me to pic up the phone right then on the occasion she calls me. I've been having a hard time lately and wanted to talk so this week i texted her extra to try and get her attention. Maybe once a day.

After a week and a half of this I got annoyed and sent a message saying..
"Why don't u ever talk to me any more? What are you doing?"
She texted back quick this time "Dude seriously Atleast I text u like at all. No one else does. Besides i just got out of the shower i was bussy'"
I texted back "I messaged you at 230 it's now 850pm. You had all day."
She texts back again "That don't mean I gota answer u! LOL!!"
And OK this pissed me off. I Always return her stuff on time no matter if she texts me at 4am or calls. So I said "What the fuck! I ALWAYS reply to you on time. You can't return the favor?"
She said "So. that doesn't mean I have to listen to you"
OK I get more pissed and say. "Fuck off then".
She comes back and says "I'm not gonna talk to u ever again if u call me names Katniss"
I said "fine be a royal bitch like everyone else in this god damn world! I should a ran my car in front of the fucking train when I had the chance".
(She wasn't gonna talk but apparently she can't resist.) She texts back "Oh you pour thing. Your gonna do all that just because I won't talk to you and no one else will? Guess I'm gonna have to call the cops on ur sorry ass"
OK majorly pissed me now. "Go the fuck away! A real friend would want to listen not fuck them over. I don't ever want to hear from you again and I'm having your number blocked".
But not before she sends another reply "YOUR a shitty ass friend! A REAL friend wouldn't bother their friend with their petty ass problems when theyr bussy."

I blocked her and did not reply to that. I was far to upset and pissed.

I get that I'm not the easiest person to get along with. But this feels like an uneven friendship. My favors are never returned but I'm expected to be on call 24-7 when she's drunk at a party. She says shes busy but so am I. I go to college and work just like her. She's also started using city slang sense moving away but insists she hasn't changed in Any way.

Am I right for letting this one go even if she was my last uh contact? I can't call her friend.

I seam to attract people who use me. All my previous friends in My life either ditched me for the in crowd or used me for something. Like free cloths that they would steal and I never hear from them again. My last group would constantly rag on me about how i need to get a job, then one day i did and they said i would never make it bc i'm a lazy ass. They also would tell me don't say anything if it ain't positive when i talked abt my problems but then they turn around and rag and complain on me all day about what i was fucking up in MY own life and how they hated so n so.

Why do I attract such scum? Or do I just have a really weak skin for this kinda stuff?

Living For Love
October 2nd, 2013, 03:29 PM
She is DEFINITELY not a good friend. I know it hurts, but it's better if you just move on. She knows that you have a hard life and she was the only one you could trust on, and then she does this? You can always try to talk to her once again, but after that argument, it would be really hard.

Katiya
October 2nd, 2013, 05:06 PM
Yeah. I just don't feel like we have any reason to speak again. I was beginning to feel used this spring. I would tell her something personal and she would laugh or be upset with me. She told me she had surgeryand i asked what for and she wouldn't tell me because she 'didn't want me to know'.
I mean I never would push her to tell me anything but it seams like I trusted her and she did not trust me.

I want to know why I keep attracting bad people. What the heck am I doing wrong? Shoot it happens so much so I think "I've just got to tolerate it BC I'm sure I anoy them too" but then I think why r we friends? Friends shouldn't feel like this abt each other. And I keep trying so hard to please my 'friends' but all they do is make me feel worse abt my self. And that feels wrong to me. people always tell me I must be doing something wrong. Ik I'm not that nice in the end but what am I doing that makes them want to use me in the first place?

I guess true friends are hard to come by!!

Living For Love
October 2nd, 2013, 06:01 PM
It's true, real friends are hard to come by, believe me.

You know that the problem might not be on you, but on them. It's not your fault that people don't understand you the way you are. Of course, you always need to treat people in a good way when you first meet them and onwards. Keep in touch with them, but avoid being intrusive, don't always talk about your problems but make the other person know that you're also available to help her/him when they need. This may seem a bit cliché, but treat them the way you would like to be treated, and, on the other hand, keep in mind that you need to be sensible enough not to let you being used by other people.

Seth Green
October 2nd, 2013, 06:46 PM
Yeah, You did the right thing. She was clearly NOT a good friend. And I'm sure you'll find friends. I myself are pretty strange, yet I have friends. Not as many as other people, but I feel like the few friends I do have, I have REALLY good relationships with. I'm sure you will find people like you're self, or people who like you even though you're different, just don't give up.

JamesSuperBoy
October 2nd, 2013, 06:51 PM
It happens - people do not just be nice - they have to try -
You move on - find real friends

If you are having a hard time and need to talk - it is okay to say that to real friends.

Katiya
October 2nd, 2013, 09:22 PM
See she would always call me with her problems and I would always a talkwith her and console her when thing happened. I never asked until now and tthis is the response I get. She use to be in a situation like I was in living but she moved in with a rich aunt and uncle not long ago. Now she gets what ever she wants and Ithink the money might have gone to her head :/ She pprobably has rich in crowdfriends now. I went thru the same thing with another girl in 6th grade, she got in the in crowd and has hated me ever sense. To the point of spitting on me once in art class. I suspect the same ting here just later in life.

Thanks for the support everyone! :) I always feel bad when I have to let yet another "friend" go because they never really were my friend.