happy on the inside

[Miserabilia]

I'm not sure if i'll ever be truly happy on the inside.

I always lie, I've never shown people my true self.
I act like I'm open and extrovert but it's all fake, I'm hiding behind someone I created to fit in.

I can't remember being truly happy on the inside.

Sure, I can laugh, and spend my time getting small laughs and having "fun", but in the end, does it make me really feel better?

No.

[ksdnfkfr]

I think I know what you mean. I'll have a good time out doing stuff but when I get home it just drains out of me and I end up curling up on my bed and crying because I feel so empty inside.

[MetroFallout]

I have that same feeling i always smile but that does not mean i'm happy, i just feel alone even though I spend my times talking to my friends and doing thing that should be fun, but i do not feel happy or excited for anything

[Blood_Thorn]

You're not along. Often when I'm others I put on a facade of happiness and try to smile and look like I'm having fun, while on the inside I just am blank, and sort of numb.

[eeee]

It will all get better with time. Trust me. Eventually your inner thoughts will reflect your outer behavior.

[Despot]

It takes time, but will pay off. I also hate creating new image of myself just to fit in but be yourself.. and soon someone will come that will like you the way you are. Just sit alone somewhere and relax your mind like yoga, it will sure help you.