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[Katiya]

Oh I am so sorry! Ive gone through just what you have at my home. Im not sure i can help much but know your not alone and that some one out there cares! I feel the same way. Like its a switch I can just turn stuff on and off.
Just know your a good person. Your not worthless or anything your mom says or makes you feel. You have value. I know its really really hard to believe that but try. Try and find little things that keep you going. Like a pet or music. Or just drawing or writing or something you like. I kind of make it day by day. I haven't found anything that really helps the situation yet other than just stick it out. If you really can't thenyou could ask to be moved to a home but I never found that a good idea for me.

[Mynick]

We can't chose our family, try to do what Katiya said, find things you like and don't let them go. When you are 18 you can leave her, you can chose if you want to live with her or not. When you get a job and can live by yourself you can chose. Until that moment wont be easy but you can do it. You are strong :hug3:

[Luminous]

Oh honey, I'm not gonna say sorry I'm going to say I feel your pain. It's not fair or right that you should have to endure any of this. Good for you for not cutting any more.

You are not a bitch and you shouldn't let anyone call you that, keep your chin up. I don't know how old you are. If you are an older teen, you can wait until you are 18 if you want to not bring the authorities in. If you are only 13 - 15 you should really call for help, it's not right for you to be subjected to this pain, because you are a beautiful human being and nobody, not even your mother, can take that away from you.

Think of it this way, by you speaking up and getting into safety, you could inspire another young person in similar situation to do the same. So you're not just saving yourself, you're saving someone else. And what if that someone else inspires another person? It goes on and on, you could do mountains of good.

I know the thought of a foster home is scary, do you have any relatives you could stay with? Grandparents, aunt, uncle? Do you have another parent you could go to? Older siblings? Do you have any younger siblings you need to protect? If so, it's even more important that you tell someone.

I know you're sick of hearing that and you don't want to do it. When you're depressed it seems like nothing ever gets better, and the saying "It gets better" means nothing. But that's not true, it really does get better if you want it to. Two of my favorite lines are "The secrets to life are hidden behind the word cliche" and "Happiness is a choice". These are both constantly said by Shay Butler, a well known Youtuber who happens to be one of the happiest men on earth. He often says the first quote about losing weight. He was overweight, but forced himself to work hard and he lost over 100 pounds and ran 3(?) marathons.
My VM and PM box are always open.

[roadwarrior]

hmm :confused: