Any tips on dealing with Emotional abuse and apathy?

[BlueFur101]

This is my first post on this site because I'm starting to run out of options.

So here's the deal:

My mom and her boyfriend have been doing this for years. Mostly my mom though. Nearly every day she gets mad about something or other, and takes it out on me. I've been called many names as well as gotten screamed at even more when I start crying. So... I stopped crying... In fact I don't feel anything anymore. I'm numb now. I find it hard tell my mom I love her due to the fact that she always tells me that she's tired of me and she should just send me away to my dad. I don't know how to explain it but... I feel like no one cares, I even stabbed myself with a pen once... A PEN! I get threatened on a daily basis, and my grades in school are falling even lower as we speak. I've even considered things such as running away, waiting to get hit by a car on a busy road, and just plain grabbing a knife from the kitchen. I feel like the world would be a better place if I weren't in it.

[Mynick]

Hello and welcome to VT.
Can you live with your dad? Explain him what's hapenning and ask him if you can go live with him. He can even call the police and try to get custody. Unfortunately we can't chose our family, but when you are older, when you can afford you own things, live by yourself, you can leave her.

[alwinwarrens]

I agree with Mynick, if your feeling so hopeless and helpless staying with your mom you should consider staying with your dad, provided he is not same as your mom.

[Katiya]

I'm sorry! This sounds so much like my home. My dad always tells me and has told me He wishes I'd never been born and he should send me to foster care. I can say I feel exactly like you. Try not to believe any thing she says about you. If your dad is nice you could ask him if you can live there?
If they are the same like my parents are then I guess I can't say much because i still have this problem my self and nothing has really helped yet. I've just become numb as well.

Try and find something you like, even if its little, like music or a pet. Some days those things will be the only thing that gets you by, though i'm sure you know this already so its more for passers by.

All I can say is I hope you can escape that problem and try and stick it out until your old enough to move out or in financial situation where you can. Most shelters will find you a place to stay pretty quick if you do have to run away. Don't stay on the street though! I've been there and there's a lot of creepers out there. I spent my nights in bushes and trees untill I found a real place to stay LOL. If you do stay in a tree don't fall out while asleep! Not fun... lol