Am I crushing on him? What should I do?

[thatgirlyoudon'tknow]

Hi,

My name is Milla and I live far far away in Chile, that-country-you-don't-know.

I'm 14 years old and this year I moved from a British only-girls school to a normal girls-and-boys school.
I've had a great time, met some great guys and I've made some pretty good friends.

I've already had a crush on someone, he's in 8th grade, just like me. He finally turned out to be a total tool, so I'm not into him anymore.

But recently, there's been this guy, who is like 1-2 years older than me, that has been on my mind. I always see him down the hallway and in recess, but before like a week ago It wasn't such a big deal. I don't even know him, I think I don't even know his name, but I always find him staring at me every time I pass by.
There was this one time, I went to the school's infirmary cause I had a sore throat. By chance, he was there as well, he had a headache, I don't know. Everytime I looked at him, I caught him staring at me or looking another way, trying to make it casual.

He is really really cute. Brown, short hair, green/brown eyes and he's pretty tall. I think I'm crushing on him, and I AM FREAKING OUT. Everytime our eyes meet, I get goose bumps.
He's like 2 years older than me, he's in Media (what you call high school in the U.S) and It kinda scares me, him being arround his friends all the time and all the girls arround him, IT'S NERVE WRACKING! How is he ever gonna notice me? I'm probably just a kid to him.

When it comes to guys, I'm shy to the extreme. I just can't talk or do anything right. Words don't come out of my mouth, I blush, my body makes It too obvious when I like someone. And him being older, makes It even worse. If anything works out, how am I going to become friends with him if I can't even talk?

I was talking to some of my friends today, about him. I told them I find him really cute and I'd like to know his name. One of my guy friends knows him, in fact, he's really good friends with him. He told me that he's not into being friends with guys his age, cause they're all into other things (smoking, drinking, parties...).

This whole subject about dating, boyfriends, romance, bla bla bla, makes me feel so overwhelmed. I feel kinda wierd (but awesome and so happy at the same time) when I think about it. I guess it's nice to have a boyfriend, and cuddle, kiss, take pictures and just be cute, but then there's another story. What if my mom finds out? What will my friends and parents think?

I don't know what to do. Am I really crushing on him? Is he into me? How am I going to become closer to him (If everything works out)? HELP ME!


- Milla AKA"That-girl-you-don't-know"



Milla AKA "That-girl-you-don't-know"

[Camazotz]

Yes, it sounds like you have a crush on him. Infatuation is a totally normal thing for teenagers. If you want to actually try to date him, you'll have to show him that you're interested by talking to him, which means overcoming shyness.

But since you're still young, you might not be ready for a real relationship, especially with someone older. Don't feel pressured by everyone else around you to feel that you need to have a boyfriend. Dating is something you'll probably have to talk about with your parents; they may not think you're ready for dating either.