I won't have a cat by the end of the week.

[1_21Guns]

I guess this will sound trivial to most of you, but she's the cat I've had since I was about 6, she's 18 in human years just like me and we decided her birthday would be 1st December (the day after mine) because we got her from a rescue home so not much is known about her history. She has oddly sized ears and a kink in her tail. She has next to no teeth left and she's your average grumpy old cat.
Around 3 years ago she got this lump on her side that would occasionally leak out with this watery substance, but she was still eating so mum decided not to think much of it (we'd have taken her to the vets, but the last time she went to one of those she completely shredded his hands up so for the sake of her stress levels and the vets hands we never took her again). Around 3 years passed and in the last couple of weeks the lump stopped leaking the watery substance, turned hard and started leaking blood instead. Everywhere. I spent an hour cleaning blood off the couch yesterday and it's bled pretty much every day this week. My grandad is calling in the vets tomorrow to explain and see what they say but they want to get her put to sleep on Wednesday.
She's never been the friendliest creature but I still remember the day I got her, standing in the rescue centre with the room full of little cages with these poor cats/kittens in them. Hell I even picked her over a little ginger kitten. She saw everything. She saw what my dad did, she heard it, she came to comfort me, she was always there and it's always been the same surprise when she;s outside my door because she's normally so antisocial. Every time I'm upset she knows and then there she is.
I just don't know how to feel, my family expect me to carry on as normal all week especially Wednesday and go to college because I'm not allowed to go while they put her to sleep but how can I leave the house that morning knowing she won't be there when I get back. I know it's what's best for her but I just.. I wanted to go even though it is horrible because I wanted closure, I wanted to say goodbye and I can't do that because I can't go to college in floods of tears but I know I have to go in.
Animals mean the world to me, they always have. I've always felt more of a connection to animals than any human and in a way I don't know how I'll cope without her little grumpy face around the house. The thought of losing her (we've known for a few months she's not in the best state) used to bring me to tears but now every time I'm alone I'm just in constant floods of tears.
I can't even have an ending to this thread because it just hurts, so here she is:
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Oh Charlie you daft old thing.

[Mynick]

She's so cute :3 You have link with her, a really strong link. She was there everytime you were down. Im not going to say: Try not to cry. Because lets be real, when you have such feelings for an animal/people, someone that means the world to you, you just can't avoid it. Just keep in mind that what you are doing its for her best. She's an old cute grumpy cat, but she'll make it. And even thought she's she's not in the best state she'll be still there everytime you need her.

[1_21Guns]

She's so cute :3 You have link with her, a really strong link. She was there everytime you were down. Im not going to say: Try not to cry. Because lets be real, when you have such feelings for an animal/people, someone that means the world to you, you just can't avoid it. Just keep in mind that what you are doing its for her best. She's an old cute grumpy cat, but she'll make it. And even thought she's she's not in the best state she'll be still there everytime you need her.

thank you, when I went downstairs and looked at her I just burst into tears but when I came back in my room there she is again on my bed waiting for me so I smiled :P

[Mynick]

thank you, when I went downstairs and looked at her I just burst into tears but when I came back in my room there she is again on my bed waiting for me so I smiled :P

She's too grumpy, and loves you too much, to leave you. :)

[sqishy]

Enjoy every second you have with her. Life becomes ever more valuable when there's less of it left. 18 years for a cat is a great age. None of mine have ever gone beyond 6 years (death not due to age). One of ours is over 5 years old..... statistically his time is almost up :(

[1_21Guns]

Enjoy every second you have with her. Life becomes ever more valuable when there's less of it left. 18 years for a cat is a great age. None of mine have ever gone beyond 6 years (death not due to age). One of ours is over 5 years old..... statistically his time is almost up :(

we honestly don't have any idea how she's lasted so long but she's still here :P she's stayed close to me a lot today so that's been a lot of comfort to me because I feel like she's telling me it's okay.
Try not to think like that, stay positive he just might be okay :)

[Castle of Glass]

:( love the life out of him now. don't know what else to really say, except this (http://31.media.tumblr.com/7e4f756d22bc22d42c43e53e86784502/tumblr_mjazc4Xmuq1r2rqqeo1_500.png)

[Mynick]

:( love the life out of him now. don't know what else to really say, except this (http://31.media.tumblr.com/7e4f756d22bc22d42c43e53e86784502/tumblr_mjazc4Xmuq1r2rqqeo1_500.png)

And this :P (https://pbs.twimg.com/media/BPU2LChCEAAj4rh.jpg)

[teen.jpg]

I feel sad now because I have a cat and I know that one day this will come :/

[1_21Guns]

:( love the life out of him now. don't know what else to really say, except this (http://31.media.tumblr.com/7e4f756d22bc22d42c43e53e86784502/tumblr_mjazc4Xmuq1r2rqqeo1_500.png)

And this :P (https://pbs.twimg.com/media/BPU2LChCEAAj4rh.jpg)

you guys are the cutest things :P


I feel sad now because I have a cat and I know that one day this will come :/

It's sad but it's a part of life, I'm sort of on the way to accepting it now until the day it actually happens, then I might be in a state again :c

[Miri]

She's a rescue kitty, and you gave her a second chance at life. You gave her a warm place to live and a safe place to sleep, and all the love in the world, and that's all she could have ever wanted. You allowed her life, and in turn she gave you and your family 18 years of love and memories, and nothing's ever going to be able to replace that.

It's funny how life becomes so much more precious when you know that it's coming to an end. All that she could ever want from you in her last days is the same thing that you've been giving her for her entire life- love.

Congratulations on your life with her, and give that gorgeous kitty a scratch behind the ears for me, will ya?

[StoppingTime]

My cat is around 17 (we also got him from a shelter, he's older than I am), and recently he's also not been in the best of health. I mean there's nothing outright wrong, but he's getting to be very old for a cat, so it's not unlikely he'll be gone within the next year or two.
Honestly every time I think about it, hell even reading this post, I just want to move on to something else because I can't handle it. He's been with me literally since I was born, and he's kind of chosen me as a "favorite" I guess you could say. He's always, literally always been there, so I know exactly what you mean, and how this is anything but trivial.

I think the best way to deal with it is to just let it happen. I mean that sounds simple but I don't think there's a better way. It's what's best for him, and while that's hard to really understand past its literal meaning now, once it happens, it won't be as bad you think. Of course you'll be in a state of just, I don't even know how I'd describe it..it's just like losing someone who's been in your life - something that's always there. The first few days will of course be the worst, as the routine of him will no longer be there. During that time just try and distract yourself in whatever ways you can - I mean you'll know but you won't be constantly dwelling on the fact.

But as time goes on, and I'm saying this with doubt personally, I think you'll just kind of adapt to how it is. It won't be the same, but it won't be like it was immediately after it happened..if that makes any sense. Sorry for the ramblings, but I've just don't even like to think about this even though I know I'll have to eventually.
I hope everything goes alright. :)

[Syvelocin]

I'm so sorry :( I feel you. My parents decided to give me my cat to help with my depression, and he's everything to me. He too always knew when I was upset. He's anti-social with everyone except with me, he's mummy's little boy. Always following me around, sitting on my office chair when I'm on the computer and sleeping on my stomach when it's time for bed.

You're not allowed to go? Seriously? I don't know your situation honestly, but I wouldn't be putting up with that. I have a friend who's getting her dog cremated so these thoughts have come to me recently and I want to do the same when Misto dies, but some places actually let you watch too. I would want to, even if it's hard. Even with my rats, I stayed with them all night when each died. I made my parents promise to fly me over when the dog dies. He turned thirteen yesterday and has had everything a dog can have it seems, but he's currently got cancer. They cut the tumor out, but they say it could be back in as little as six months.

They're like the best of friends, animals. Always there for you, but they don't ask for much, just love. I personally have trouble because I'm so sensitive to these things that I wonder if pets are even worth it. Like, at least children the odds are in your favour that you get to die before they do. My quality of life is increased threefold at least with my cat, but judging by the severity of my depression phase when my guinea pig died, I'm in for a hell of a time.

Anyway, I hope you cope well. My regards to Charlie. I am both completely understanding and unable to imagine what you're going through.

[1_21Guns]

She's a rescue kitty, and you gave her a second chance at life. You gave her a warm place to live and a safe place to sleep, and all the love in the world, and that's all she could have ever wanted. You allowed her life, and in turn she gave you and your family 18 years of love and memories, and nothing's ever going to be able to replace that.

It's funny how life becomes so much more precious when you know that it's coming to an end. All that she could ever want from you in her last days is the same thing that you've been giving her for her entire life- love.

Congratulations on your life with her, and give that gorgeous kitty a scratch behind the ears for me, will ya?

Thank you Miranda, that helped a lot honestly. With the way she's been after she saw me crying this morning I think she's trying to tell me it's okay and that I did good, and of course I will :P


My cat is around 17 (we also got him from a shelter, he's older than I am), and recently he's also not been in the best of health. I mean there's nothing outright wrong, but he's getting to be very old for a cat, so it's not unlikely he'll be gone within the next year or two.
Honestly every time I think about it, hell even reading this post, I just want to move on to something else because I can't handle it. He's been with me literally since I was born, and he's kind of chosen me as a "favorite" I guess you could say. He's always, literally always been there, so I know exactly what you mean, and how this is anything but trivial.

I think the best way to deal with it is to just let it happen. I mean that sounds simple but I don't think there's a better way. It's what's best for him, and while that's hard to really understand past its literal meaning now, once it happens, it won't be as bad you think. Of course you'll be in a state of just, I don't even know how I'd describe it..it's just like losing someone who's been in your life - something that's always there. The first few days will of course be the worst, as the routine of him will no longer be there. During that time just try and distract yourself in whatever ways you can - I mean you'll know but you won't be constantly dwelling on the fact.

But as time goes on, and I'm saying this with doubt personally, I think you'll just kind of adapt to how it is. It won't be the same, but it won't be like it was immediately after it happened..if that makes any sense. Sorry for the ramblings, but I've just don't even like to think about this even though I know I'll have to eventually.
I hope everything goes alright. :)

Thank you Steven :) I just know it's gonna be so hard to leave the house on Wednesday morning because when I get back she won't be there and I honestly don't know how to deal with that, I don't know how I will deal with that. At the moment I've been able to look at it as just letting it happen but on Wednesday.. eek. I wouldn't even want to be around myself let alone go to college and have other people around me. Thinking about it a couple of months ago was dreadful and now it's just.. there... thank you though honestly :)

I'm so sorry :( I feel you. My parents decided to give me my cat to help with my depression, and he's everything to me. He too always knew when I was upset. He's anti-social with everyone except with me, he's mummy's little boy. Always following me around, sitting on my office chair when I'm on the computer and sleeping on my stomach when it's time for bed.

You're not allowed to go? Seriously? I don't know your situation honestly, but I wouldn't be putting up with that. I have a friend who's getting her dog cremated so these thoughts have come to me recently and I want to do the same when Misto dies, but some places actually let you watch too. I would want to, even if it's hard. Even with my rats, I stayed with them all night when each died. I made my parents promise to fly me over when the dog dies. He turned thirteen yesterday and has had everything a dog can have it seems, but he's currently got cancer. They cut the tumor out, but they say it could be back in as little as six months.

They're like the best of friends, animals. Always there for you, but they don't ask for much, just love. I personally have trouble because I'm so sensitive to these things that I wonder if pets are even worth it. Like, at least children the odds are in your favour that you get to die before they do. My quality of life is increased threefold at least with my cat, but judging by the severity of my depression phase when my guinea pig died, I'm in for a hell of a time.

Anyway, I hope you cope well. My regards to Charlie. I am both completely understanding and unable to imagine what you're going through.

Thank you Rith :) I was really annoyed when they were like "oh you won't want to go it's horrible" well yeah.. but I don't think I'll make it into college that day anyway so I don't know what's worse. I was a wreck when my mice died and I'd only had those a couple of years so hell only knows how I'll take this :P

Thank you again guys, you made me feel a lot better :hug:

[Croconaw]

Awww that's such a cute cat. :( I'm sorry.

[1_21Guns]

UPDATE:
Upon some discussion with my family I may be able to go in while they do it as someone has to get her into the cat box and that's happened to be me. I'm going to be sad either way and I think I would prefer to be there because I'm hoping you're allowed to touch them while they do it so I could stroke her behind her ears and relax her so she won't be as much trouble for the vet. I sort of feel like I want to be there if only to support her because I know vets are very distressing for her and I'd hate to make her go through it without me after she's been through so much with me. I'm hoping I get to go in but I'm not sure if my grandparents just want to drop her off, which I didn't even think you could do but there you go. I told my college tutor today and she explained a similar problem she'd had with her dogs and that she didn't want to go because it'd be the last thing she saw but in my case the last thing I'll see is her being in a cat box in the vets anyway so I'm not cutting any corners there. Here's hoping, I'm trying to be strong for her, because I know she's being strong for me.

Awww that's such a cute cat. :( I'm sorry.

thank you :(

PERHAPS some resolution.

u can in theory ask a human doctor and consult with animal doctor to pump Her with glucose infusion. N2O might be given first in a correct dose through breathing to make Her feel more confortable before the surgery. It might also be used for mild anesthesia.

She can live on glucose infusion, and some stuff afterwards, and some amino acids administered too with some vitamins and anabolizm boosters. She can have the thing removed from Her wich caused the infection. antibiotics and in vitro cultured T cells of Her might be used in conjunction to clear off Her body from infections.

She might be kept at the hospitall Till She recovers.


I had 2 little cats and also some infants died because of bad medical standards in my country (at least very bad vet standards). I have felt horrible on and off when i have lost my poor kittens (but there is no sense to feel horrible).

She's very old and far beyond repair, I don't think we could even afford to try and make her better, and I doubt they would with her age, thank you though.

[Mynick]

Best of luck Nat, hope they allow you to go in!

[Luminous]

Oh my god, I feel you so much. I have 3 cats that mean the world to me. For several weeks my 9 year old went missing just recently. It was one of the most horrible feelings, not knowing where she was. We are extremely lucky to have her back safe, and I can't begin to imagine what it would have been like if she hadn't survived.
18 years is a very long life for a cat. You are extremely fortunate that she lived that long. You can treasure every moment you had with her. Take lots and lots of pictures of her in these next few days. It's going to be really, really, really tough to get through this. Try and remember her fondly instead of missing her. I know a family who bury their dead cats (they always have 2-4 cats, and in the past, idk, 10 years, multiple cats have died) in their yard. That might not be too helpful though since you're going away. Some people look at this idea as creepy but another idea is to cremate her and keep her ashes with you. She will always be a part of your life and childhood.

[1_21Guns]

I disagree. She might seem to be beyond repair, but it might only be due to a raging inflammation also caused by the same thing causing the leaking. what i was talking about is possible and perhaps affordable (in theory it should be thinking about energy needed to produce stuff).
the procedure sorta described would bypass currently perhaps inefficient digestive system.
So She might survive even in good health perhaps for a few years, or i dont know.
Ask someone at a university about it. If it doesnt work out She might be killed without pain, She had 1 week or 3 weeks wasted (painkillers and happy-drugs can be administered along this time).
She can also eat food not recquiring known sentients to be killed.

She is 18 years old, do you have any idea what the life expectancy is of a cat? She is already past that by a couple of years. They will not treat any animal of that age especially if it would involve anaesthetic. My family have had pets of various types for years, they do not operate on old animals which may not be able to withstand the treatment. It is cruel to keep her alive when she is clearly suffering and nothing more. Why on earth would I want to keep her going another couple of years just to go through this again. This isn't a debate about whether or not she could be kept alive, this is my cat that is going to die in two days, please do not insult me and my cat by turning this into a medical debate.

Oh my god, I feel you so much. I have 3 cats that mean the world to me. For several weeks my 9 year old went missing just recently. It was one of the most horrible feelings, not knowing where she was. We are extremely lucky to have her back safe, and I can't begin to imagine what it would have been like if she hadn't survived.
18 years is a very long life for a cat. You are extremely fortunate that she lived that long. You can treasure every moment you had with her. Take lots and lots of pictures of her in these next few days. It's going to be really, really, really tough to get through this. Try and remember her fondly instead of missing her. I know a family who bury their dead cats (they always have 2-4 cats, and in the past, idk, 10 years, multiple cats have died) in their yard. That might not be too helpful though since you're going away. Some people look at this idea as creepy but another idea is to cremate her and keep her ashes with you. She will always be a part of your life and childhood.

I have plenty of pictures so I'm glad about that :P we won't be keeping her remains though although I can't say I mind too much, a picture in a frame will serve enough purpose for me. We'd have her buried but she's probably riddled with things that shouldn't mix with the ground. Thank you love :)

[Luminous]

I have plenty of pictures so I'm glad about that :P we won't be keeping her remains though although I can't say I mind too much, a picture in a frame will serve enough purpose for me. We'd have her buried but she's probably riddled with things that shouldn't mix with the ground. Thank you love :)

You are very welcome, message me any time :)

[Lovelife090994]

I have a dog and now I feel sad but I love my dog and I know you will be fine and hopefully I pray your cat will hold out for a little longer. Chin up, you and you cat you love each other, love isn't gone by death, but actually lengthened.

[1_21Guns]

UPDATE:
Well it's done, she damn well didn't go without a fight though bless her. I put her in the cat carrier without a peep which is most unusual and in the car she just nuzzled the door and I tickled behind her ear. It was kind of hard to be there but I'm glad I got to be there. Rest in peace Charlie Rascal, hell knows I'll miss you.

[Lost in the Echo]

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