Life after high school.

[Extreme586]

I'm looking at a college right now in the town I'm currently living in. The problem is I am the most awkward person at our school right now and have probably 0 friends because I have alienated all of them and made them feel awful.


I keep thinking I'm only staying because of this boy I like and the connections I had at one point with the people here. It's all gone now and I think the guy doesn't like me either just because of how awkward things got. Unfortunately just moving and dropping everything wouldn't work either because this is the best college in my state for computer engineering. I feel trapped, yet I'm not sure I would leave anyhow. Families leaving this city soon too. Advice?

[Brays123]

Just do what's right and be your self, if people don't like you it's their problem. But, if you want to change try to make a friend and talk about you trying to be less awkward. Might work.

[steellord321]

Is there some reason you can't start over socially? Even the same town, unless your whole grade is going to this college, you will meet new people. Or you could try apologizing or whatever the problem is.

[Extreme586]

Is there some reason you can't start over socially? Even the same town, unless your whole grade is going to this college, you will meet new people. Or you could try apologizing or whatever the problem is.

I guess I could simply put. But I just have such a lack of motivation and purpose right now. On top of that the people I want to be around don't want to be around me. Maybe I could start over with the people in my classes and stuff but it's hard because it just feels so pointless. Maybe it's a place to start, idk. A lot of people in my classes are underclassman and the few that are seniors (besides my few required classes of all seniors), everyone already knows me to be this type of person.

Sometimes I relax and don't care what people think about me and can just be myself. But then I start getting self conscious again and too introspective of everything I do, and then the awkward comes into play. A lot of it stemmed from the belief that nobody wanted to talk to me when I would pass them in the hallways etc, now it's true.

[steellord321]

^well i'm thoroughly hated in this town myself, but i'm looking at college as a new start. You gotta have some hope or everything falls apart.