All coming back

[Mynick]

I feel everything coming back, The urges to cut, the will to starve everything's coming back. Every day i feel even more depressed. Nothing appeals me, any hobbies i had mean nothing right now. I dont feel numb, i think, i still feel the pain, but there's nothing more, pain and no more. Not even anger.
I want to cut again so badly, i want to, i had the blade upon my skin but i couldn't do it, not yet, its so hard to hide it now.
Everywhere i look i only see people worried about stupid little things. I dont know its like i despise them. I know that im not better than them, keep that in mind.
I dont know.

[Xavier2]

Is there no one in your community (school, friends, family, health services) you would feel comfortable talking about this too? I'd like to give some advice if I could but can you clarify what you mean by everything "coming back"? As in what caused you to feel you needed to cut in the first place?

[Mynick]

Last year, right about this time was when i started cutting really bad, well at leasr comparing what i used to do. I attemped suicide one time and since im here typing i failed. The feellings i had back then are coming back.

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Can you tell me why you feel these urges?