Help Me!

[HelpMeScared]

I live with my mom, her boyfriend and my sister. My parents have joint custody and I see my dad and stepmom every other weekend. I'm really scared of my mom. She yells at me for everything, even if I did nothing wrong, she calls me names like stupid, lazy, f*cked up, and I'm afraid to stand up to her. I just sit and take all the verbal abuse. I really think I am everything she calls me cause I've been listening to it for so long. I've become so depressed that I've started cutting myself. I have cuts on my arms and legs. I can't stop cutting. I want to go live with my dad cause its a better environment for me and I'll be happy. I'll be able to stop cutting living there. My mom doesn't know I cut and she can't find out cause I'm scared of what she will do. How can I leave my moms house without telling her until after I'm safe with my dad? Please help me!

[Luminous]

Oh no!
Push yourself to be strong enough to wait until the next time you go to your dad's place. And when you do, tell him. Tell him everything, don't hold back anything, the cutting, what she says to you, the depression, everything. He's your dad, and it sounds like he loves you, so I'm sure he will listen to you and try to get full custody of you.
Good luck.

[Mynick]

You are NOT what she says you are. You are strong person, as Hannah said next time you go to your dad tell him everything maybe he can get full costody.
Check this thread (http://www.virtualteen.org/forums/showthread.php?t=190748) you'll find several ways to stop cutting. I know its hard and seems it helps, but in the end only does worst.
Stay strong :hug:

[musicjunkie1310]

I know the feeling. I mean, my parents aren't separated so the verbal abuse is 2x and I still do believe I'm everything they call me. But next time you go to your dad's place, be sure to tell him everything. I know it's going to be hard to tell your dad, even though you're more comfortable with him, but it's going to be for the best right? Stay strong honey :)