1_21Guns
September 12th, 2013, 12:46 PM
Seriously what is your problem? You came home with a headache and then stressed at me because I haven't got tea ready.. well I'm sorry I've been off college for two days because I'm sick, yeah I have been better today but I'm still a little drowsy and not quite with it. You had to wait 20 bloody minutes for tea to cook, 20 minutes. Hardly fatal. Even the damn dogs curled up next to me because you're stropping at him. It's not my fault you don't like cleaning up while people were over, I didn't demand my boyfriend came over this weekend so you had to go up in arms over it and start rushing around tidying everything.
This is why I hate having parents who have jobs, you're turning into him. Work sucks so lets drink and smoke like it's going to make it disappear. No, it's bloody not. You're stressing me out and you know you are, I've been diagnosed with something that's incredibly stress triggered and all you're doing is moaning. I know life is stressful at the moment I sat there with you while we worked out how much money we'd have with your new shitty job and yeah its a lot less than when you were on job seekers but that's not my fault. You didn't want me to have a gap year doing nothing but now you don't want me in college either? Make your flipping mind up. I'm really struggling at the moment and you know I've been sent for counselling which I still haven't had a few months ago. You know there's something wrong with me. With every stroppy bang you're making upstairs a shiver shoots down my spine. You're being so ridiculous at the moment, I still can't believe you stormed in the house asking where tea was. I don't need this right now. I don't need this at all. I'd convinced myself to go to the doctors tomorrow but now I don't want to. I'm tired. I'm so tired. Every night cutting gets more and more tempting. Every night that black hole looks more and more tempting. I just want release. I just want to be able to breathe. I just want this to go away. I don't want to be sick any more. I'm so tired. Nobody gets it and everybody leaves. I'm losing my mind.
This is why I hate having parents who have jobs, you're turning into him. Work sucks so lets drink and smoke like it's going to make it disappear. No, it's bloody not. You're stressing me out and you know you are, I've been diagnosed with something that's incredibly stress triggered and all you're doing is moaning. I know life is stressful at the moment I sat there with you while we worked out how much money we'd have with your new shitty job and yeah its a lot less than when you were on job seekers but that's not my fault. You didn't want me to have a gap year doing nothing but now you don't want me in college either? Make your flipping mind up. I'm really struggling at the moment and you know I've been sent for counselling which I still haven't had a few months ago. You know there's something wrong with me. With every stroppy bang you're making upstairs a shiver shoots down my spine. You're being so ridiculous at the moment, I still can't believe you stormed in the house asking where tea was. I don't need this right now. I don't need this at all. I'd convinced myself to go to the doctors tomorrow but now I don't want to. I'm tired. I'm so tired. Every night cutting gets more and more tempting. Every night that black hole looks more and more tempting. I just want release. I just want to be able to breathe. I just want this to go away. I don't want to be sick any more. I'm so tired. Nobody gets it and everybody leaves. I'm losing my mind.