Scars that won't fade...

[musicjunkie1310]

Hey :)
I remember the first time I cut... somewhere in mid January this year... to release all that pain of letting the thought of hater's thoughts getting in your head...
I felt numb.
No feeling.
Except the searing pain on my arm.
My first Strawberry Gash.
And it felt great... releasing all that pent up feelings...
Those scars won't fade, they're too vivid.

Anyone else feel this way?

[Harley Quinn]

I have scars all over my body that I do sometimes wish never existed, but they're part of me now and I'm not ashamed of them. Sure, they look horrible and whatever but they're me. Even if the physical scars fade, the mental ones never do. I remember the reason for each scar on my body and I won't forget those. I don't think I'd be me without the damage to my body, as sad as that sounds I just don't. There are some I wish never existed and they do make me hate myself, but in time I know I'll learn to accept them as part of me.

[1_21Guns]

Most, and I say most but pretty much all of my scars have faded now, I can still see the ones on my arm because I know that they're there, but to someone that wouldn't know they couldn't see them. The mental scars, not so much. I don't think those will ever fade away, fortunately I know no cut, burn or anything else could make my mental pain disappear.