3 months but to what cause? :(

[Genesissoma]

I've been three months straight but I want to cut so bad it hurts. I always get to this withdrawal period where I NEED NEED NEED to cut and then i start all over again with the recovery. I want to get to a year but I'm pretty sure i'm not going to make it that far...
I want to go at least six months to prove to myself i can do it and i'm not a failure. But let's face it, I already know i'm a failure i just want to get something right... I ended up purging about two weeks ago and i was three months clean of that too. I'm just getting to the point where i'm starting to not care.
The reason i can't cut is because i am in college right now and i'm only sixteen. My parents (my mom) says that i need to learn to control my stress or i won't ever be able to be a doctor or she'll take me out of school... That's scary because college has been a huge dream of mine for like ever...
I want to stop, i don't want to fail but at the same time I'm failing and don't want to stop! Help!!:(

[Mynick]

Hello and welcome to VT

No sweety you are not failure, not at all. 3 months is an amazing time, it really is. Six months would be alot, and think, when you manage, how you are going to be proud of yourself. Think about that, you can do it. You can check this thread (http://www.virtualteen.org/forums/showthread.php?t=190748), there you'll find several ways to stop cutting, and trust me tehy help a lot.
I dont think threating is fair, cutting is really hard to quit.

Keep fighting, and if you need to talk feel free to VM me anytime you want :)

[Genesissoma]

[2497201]Hello and welcome to VT

No sweety you are not failure, not at all. 3 months is an amazing time, it really is. Six months would be alot, and think, when you manage, how you are going to be proud of yourself. Think about that, you can do it. You can check there you'll find several ways to stop cutting, and trust me tehy help a lot.
I dont think threating is fair, cutting is really hard to quit.

Keep fighting, and if you need to talk feel free to VM me anytime you want :)



Thanks so much! The longest I ever went was 5 months... I was proud but at that time i had just stopped caring and i relapsed big time... I want to believe i can do it... but it's rough..... I have read and watched alot of videos and forums on how to aviod self harm and they are good... I just have to want to do them instead of self harm....

[Mynick]

[2497201]Thanks so much! The longest I ever went was 5 months... I was proud but at that time i had just stopped caring and i relapsed big time... I want to believe i can do it... but it's rough..... I have read and watched alot of videos and forums on how to aviod self harm and they are good... I just have to want to do them instead of self harm....

I wish i could do it for 5 months, that's a such good mark. See what works with you and do it every time you want to cut. Its rough as hell but you are stronger, a lot stronger. You can do it.

[Genesissoma]

thanks! :) I'll will continue to keep on... I probably will message you from time to time.. We're the same age too so thats cool :)