stuck...sorta...

[VictoriaGotaSecret]

I'm stuck. i have a day picked out for when I'd like to 'go' but part of me is still stuck wondering about how people will be affected and the things that could happen in my future if i don't commit.
I'm not asking for help to become unstuck so i do it, i need to clear my head...of the constant negative thoughts that are in it.

I'm sorry for not being detailed or anything but I need help. My thoughts are taking me hostage and I don't know what to do anymore. I can't fight them back. I just need a clear head.

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Hi! I recognized your username and remembered that I've talked to you before in the past.

I'm begging you... please, please, please don't do anything to hurt yourself. Nobody should ever kill themselves. Nobody deserves it. Even if you don't think he would, he absolutely would. Your parents, your friends, even people that barely know you would be hurt and for a long time. Someone I knew took her life almost a year ago and it affected a ton of people.

You mentioned that you had a little brother. He would miss you unbelievably. Your little brother looks up to you. At least stay for him.

If you need to PM, I would be more than happy to do so.

[VictoriaGotaSecret]

Hi! I recognized your username and remembered that I've talked to you before in the past.

I'm begging you... please, please, please don't do anything to hurt yourself. Nobody should ever kill themselves. Nobody deserves it. Even if you don't think he would, he absolutely would. Your parents, your friends, even people that barely know you would be hurt and for a long time. Someone I knew took her life almost a year ago and it affected a ton of people.

You mentioned that you had a little brother. He would miss you unbelievably. Your little brother looks up to you. At least stay for him.

If you need to PM, I would be more than happy to do so.

You recognize me? Did you change your username or something? sorry I have a shit memory.

and sorry if I'm asking you more than I'm revealing but where did the thing about my brother come from?

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LOL, my username is just really hard to remember. No biggie.

I don't mind being asked more than revealed to at all. It was about a concussion.

[VictoriaGotaSecret]

LOL, my username is just really hard to remember. No biggie.

I don't mind being asked more than revealed to at all. It was about a concussion.

no, your username isn't hard to remember, i really have a shit memory.

i think both of my brother could care less if i were gone. they'd like it...me not being around.

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I can swear to you that that's NOT the case. I have 2 little siblings. I've been sure that they'd be happier without me, but after a custody change, I don't see them as often. They've missed me and grown closer to me since then.

They love you. They'd miss you terribly. It's so hard to lose an older sibling.

[whywontthiswork]

I'm stuck. i have a day picked out for when I'd like to 'go' but part of me is still stuck wondering about how people will be affected and the things that could happen in my future if i don't commit.
I'm not asking for help to become unstuck so i do it, i need to clear my head...of the constant negative thoughts that are in it.

I'm sorry for not being detailed or anything but I need help. My thoughts are taking me hostage and I don't know what to do anymore. I can't fight them back. I just need a clear head.
Please dont kill yourself it doesnt help, i know for experience and all it ended up doing was hurting the love of my life... i used to cut as well so she started... i didnt know until she called me one day saying that she had to leave me and earth forever i begged her not to but she killed herself... Please dont!!! Vm me if you need to ok?

[Plasma]

no, your username isn't hard to remember, i really have a shit memory.

i think both of my brother could care less if i were gone. they'd like it...me not being around.

That isn't true. No matter how much you think your life sucks and how much you want to end it, every person that you've ever met will be affected dearly by it. I PROMISE you, if you stick through it, it will all get better and you will be so happy that you didn't end it before. You'll be able to go on and enjoy a nice life. Keep your head up, don't give up. Give the world the middle finger if you need to!

[VictoriaGotaSecret]

they love you. They'd miss you terribly. It's so hard to lose an older sibling.


but they wont miss me and they dont love me. when i'm gone they won't have to worry about someone being over their shoulder all the time, they'll be at peace with all the bad stuff that went on between us. they won't worry about those things and more when i'm gone.

[Blood]

I'm stuck. i have a day picked out for when I'd like to 'go' but part of me is still stuck wondering about how people will be affected and the things that could happen in my future if i don't commit.
I'm not asking for help to become unstuck so i do it, i need to clear my head...of the constant negative thoughts that are in it.

I'm sorry for not being detailed or anything but I need help. My thoughts are taking me hostage and I don't know what to do anymore. I can't fight them back. I just need a clear head.

Hi. :)

I'm sure you've heard this a million times, but suicide is NEVER the answer. There are people in this world who care about you. There are people who love you. You are unique and original, you cannot be replaced. I don't know why you picked a day to commit it, because I know you're strong enough to realize that that isn't the answer. :hug:

Do you have any hobbies that you enjoy doing? If you don't, I HIGHLY recommend you find something you love. This will help so much with helping to get rid of the negative thoughts and clearing your head, trust me. It can be reading, music, running, drawing, chess...it just needs to be something you're passionate about.

I hope this helps. I'm here if you need to talk/vent/rant about anything. :cuddle:

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but they wont miss me and they dont love me. when i'm gone they won't have to worry about someone being over their shoulder all the time, they'll be at peace with all the bad stuff that went on between us. they won't worry about those things and more when i'm gone.

They absolutely will miss you. No matter how you guys have gotten along, they will miss you. And they will for years to come.

[VictoriaGotaSecret]

Hi. :)

I'm sure you've heard this a million times, but suicide is NEVER the answer. There are people in this world who care about you. There are people who love you. You are unique and original, you cannot be replaced. I don't know why you picked a day to commit it, because I know you're strong enough to realize that that isn't the answer. :hug:

Do you have any hobbies that you enjoy doing? If you don't, I HIGHLY recommend you find something you love. This will help so much with helping to get rid of the negative thoughts and clearing your head, trust me. It can be reading, music, running, drawing, chess...it just needs to be something you're passionate about.

I hope this helps. I'm here if you need to talk/vent/rant about anything. :cuddle:

I picked a day because I don't want to be sitting here doing nothing. If I make it there I did something and by then I'll be ready and know what I'm doing, hopefully.

I like writing but it just makes me think a lot about everything and it drives me deeper. I don' really care for anything else, even playing video games, its just in the moment then once I put everything down the thoughts all come back.

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Try writing. One of my friends absolutely loves writing. Use it as a healthy outlet. Share what you write on here, I love creative people and I'd love to read what you write.

[VictoriaGotaSecret]

Try writing. One of my friends absolutely loves writing. Use it as a healthy outlet. Share what you write on here, I love creative people and I'd love to read what you write.

my writing is depressing and you don't want to know what goes on in my head

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my writing is depressing and you don't want to know what goes on in my head

Of course I do! It'd help me figure out what you're thinking, and like I said, I love creative people.

[VictoriaGotaSecret]

*may trigger*

i feel like tearing my arm apart. i just feel the urge cut as deep as i can. being at school made it worse because i couldn't and i had to hold back.

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Why do you feel the need to cut? I want to understand your situation.

[VictoriaGotaSecret]

thats a long story

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I'm more than happy to hear it.

[Luminous]

Please, please, don't do it. I know it doesn't seem like it right now but you mean so much to so many people, maybe you think your parents don't care but they do, they raised you and it takes a lot of love to commit to something like raising a child. Your brothers, I see mentioned? They maybe don't seem like they like you but that's because they're just being kids and people, you don't realize how much they look up to and admire you, they tease you because they wish they could be like you. If you're bullied in school, it's because of jealousy. Please, rethink and rethink again what you're doing, consider what will happen and how many people will miss you and love you even more.

[VictoriaGotaSecret]

Please, please, don't do it. I know it doesn't seem like it right now but you mean so much to so many people, maybe you think your parents don't care but they do, they raised you and it takes a lot of love to commit to something like raising a child. Your brothers, I see mentioned? They maybe don't seem like they like you but that's because they're just being kids and people, you don't realize how much they look up to and admire you, they tease you because they wish they could be like you. If you're bullied in school, it's because of jealousy. Please, rethink and rethink again what you're doing, consider what will happen and how many people will miss you and love you even more.

I am thinking about everything. I can't stop thinking about it all but everything is driving me deeper. I don;t want to hurt anyone but I don't want to be here anymore. If I can't figure things out by that day I don't know what I'm going to do. I'm not saying I have to feel better but atleast know how to avoid giving into my thoughts

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Is there anywhere you can go to make you feel better? You've mentioned your uncle before, is he even an option?

[VictoriaGotaSecret]

Is there anywhere you can go to make you feel better? You've mentioned your uncle before, is he even an option?

not really. for me to even go to his house i have to 'sneak' over, my 'dad' wouldn't allow me to live there or anywhere else, he wants us trapped in his hell

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Is there any chance of going to the authorities?

[VictoriaGotaSecret]

Is there any chance of going to the authorities?

not really

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Are there any friends or family members that you can go to for support?

[VictoriaGotaSecret]

Are there any friends or family members that you can go to for support?

kind of but i'm afraid of things getting to my parents

[Magnus Bane]

dont ever think that your sibling dont love you. they love you no matter what some of the same things happen with my siblings as yours but i know they love me. and yours do too. dont kill yourself. its not the way. you are wasting your inoocent life. you have a life to live. a life bestowed by your parents who would miss you terribly. I had a friend who committed suicide and their parents were so devesated. their marriage fell apart. his father became a drunk and his mother moved as fr away from their house as she could. his brothers and sister went through foster care. do you honestly want that to happen to your family?? Think of everyone you will hurt. think about you all the opportunities you will miss. the life that you could've had. the life that you will have.

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kind of but i'm afraid of things getting to my parents

I can just about guarantee you that no friend would go to your parents about it. If you have a family member that you can talk to, judge on the individual person. Do you have someone who you can talk to where you know it won't get back to your parents?

[VictoriaGotaSecret]

I can just about guarantee you that no friend would go to your parents about it. If you have a family member that you can talk to, judge on the individual person. Do you have someone who you can talk to where you know it won't get back to your parents?

not really.

I'm sorry but i feel like doing this now. I just lost one of my closest friends and I need peace.

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not really.

I'm sorry but i feel like doing this now. I just lost one of my closest friends and I need peace.

Please, please, please don't. Talk to me if you need to. PM me, I will talk to you every single day until you feel alright.

[VictoriaGotaSecret]

Please, please, please don't. Talk to me if you need to. PM me, I will talk to you every single day until you feel alright.

thanks.

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I can't PM yet, so how was your day today?

[VictoriaGotaSecret]

I can't PM yet, so how was your day today?

Want to do vm instead?

I don't know how to explain how I felt today. How are you?

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Want to do vm instead?

I don't know how to explain how I felt today. How are you?

VM is probably the right idea, although mine are still moderated so they may take a little while to come through.