I just dont know when to stop

[CrazyGirl94]

Hi, im new to this, but ive been feeling sorry for myself and decided it was best to speak to people that actually understand rather than the councillor i keep being referred to,
So ive been cutting for about a year now,becos of personal reasons and ive been on anti depressants and referred to a councillor, nothing could stop me cutting, i thought hurting myself would get rid of all the anger i had and of how worthless i felt but i stopped for about 2 weeks and last night i caved in and started again, it was like i was in control first of all then i just couldnt stop it was like someone had taken over my body, my wrist and my arm has been butched, im scared why one i wont be able to stop at all, i have to cut though, i dont know what to do.

[Castle of Glass]

So, in short, your addicted. That's why you can't stop. i know it is hard. You you stopped for 2 weeks, so you can do it again. I know you can. I would list ways to stop, but why do it when there is this thread (http://www.virtualteen.org/forums/showthread.php?t=190748). You should talk to a therapist/psychologist/what ever. And as long as you aren't trying to kill yourself, they aren't allowed to tell your parents any of the stuff you tell him/her. i know you are stronger :hug:

[Poisonberry]

Hi, im new to this, but ive been feeling sorry for myself and decided it was best to speak to people that actually understand rather than the councillor i keep being referred to,
So ive been cutting for about a year now,becos of personal reasons and ive been on anti depressants and referred to a councillor, nothing could stop me cutting, i thought hurting myself would get rid of all the anger i had and of how worthless i felt but i stopped for about 2 weeks and last night i caved in and started again, it was like i was in control first of all then i just couldnt stop it was like someone had taken over my body, my wrist and my arm has been butched, im scared why one i wont be able to stop at all, i have to cut though, i dont know what to do.

As Niilo (what an interesting name...) said self harm can become an addiction. You will have to fight that as well as deal with the other issues, anger, etc. Why not start by telling us what's wrong, I'm sure we've all been through similar stuff and can relate and let you know you're not all alone.

[ToxicApple69]

Hi, im new to this, but ive been feeling sorry for myself and decided it was best to speak to people that actually understand rather than the councillor

Good, I never trusted councilors.

i keep being referred to,
So ive been cutting for about a year now,

Hesitation wounds huh? Well at least you didn't go through with it, and it's a good thing you came to this site for help.

becos of personal reasons and ive been on anti depressants and referred to a councillor, nothing could stop me cutting, i thought hurting myself would get rid of all the anger i had

Well I don't want to you to commit suicide. If you are going to commit suicide, make sure it's at least a quick and guaranteed method. Cutting yourself like that (i.e. hesitation wounds) will...

In the case of a failed suicide attempt, the person may experience injury of the tendons of the extrinsic flexor muscles, or the ulnar and median nerves which control the muscles of the hand, both of which can result in temporary or permanent reduction in the victim's sensory and/or motor ability and/or also cause chronic somatic or autonomic pain.[3] As in any class IV hemorrhage, aggressive resuscitation is required to prevent death of the patient; standard emergency bleeding control applies for pre-hospital treatment.
- Reference (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Suicide_methods#Wrist_cutting)

TL;DR - Just don't cut yourself

If you are willing to commit suicide over your problems, it is essentially surrender. Never Surrender


and of how worthless i felt but i stopped for about 2 weeks and last night i caved in and started again, it was like i was in control first of all then i just couldnt stop it was like someone had taken over my body, my wrist and my arm has been butched, im scared why one i wont be able to stop at all, i have to cut though, i dont know what to do.

Like I said before, wrist-cutting is a terrible suicide method. Not that I advocate suicide in any form, but that will just leave you fatally injured.

Anyway the fact that you aren't dead shows that you were just having a bad time, and didn't want to really commit suicide. You just needed a way to let the anger out.

Find a hobby, make friends on the internet (like on here). Don't kill yourself, I can tell your young, so your life is merely beginning. You have much to live for my friend.

[ksdnfkfr]

Please feel free to keep talking to ppl here about this. A lot of us are going through the same thing or something like it. Two weeks was a good start. Don't give up on yourself. Every one of us fighting this has had relapses.

[CrazyGirl94]

I didnt wanna commit suicide, its just my way of coping and basically i split up with my boyfriend over a year ago and i made him my world &then when he was gone i was left with nothing, i was 18 and very stupid, no matter how much i drank it didnt seem to do anything and then he kept coming back telling me we were getting back together this only stopped last week, its been a drag...little did i know he would be the worst of my problems, my moms threw me out, found out everything shes ever told me was a lie etc and everythings a mess, im 19 i should be out getting clubbing going on holidays etc but ive just been depressed instead, the story is far more complex, but i just cant bring myself to write it all down