I don't know why.

[jacobtheman]

Ok, I normally don't do this type of sharing, but for about a year I've been severely depressed. I just honestly don't know what to do anymore. I wanna cut so badly. I don't tell any of my friends what's going on because I'm afraid of how they would look at me. I'm afraid they wouldn't talk to me again. It's just that I keep all my emotions bottled up inside because there's no one I feel comfortable talking to. I need help, and I'm just not sure anymore.

[Living For Love]

Please don't start cutting. It will only make your condition worse. Think about all the good things you have in life. It's ok if you keep your emotions for yourself, you just need to learn how to control them. Things will get better eventualy, and when your depression finishes, you can proudly say that you survived and didn't do anything so dramatic as cutting.

[Mynick]

I'm sorry to hear that. Please dont cut yourself, i know its tempting and may provide temporal relief but it won't help you. In the end it only does worst.
Do you have a friend you really trust? If so, talk with him after all that's for what friends are for, for bad and good moments. You could also consider talking with your school counselor. Bottle up emocions can hurt you, spcially if you are depressed you need to talk with someone it really helps.

[1_21Guns]

Self harm isn't an answer for anything, it doesn't help anything and it never will. 5 minutes of relief are certainly not worth a long battle with an addiction and a bunch of scars.
Bottling up is the worst thing you can do but I understand your concern of how your friends might react to it, however at the end of the day if they stop talking to you because you're depressed what sort of friends really are they? Try and find one you really trust, or seek help in counselling or a trusted adult :hug3:

[Saint of Sinners]

Cutting yourself is a terrible way to release pent up emotions. In fact, it usually worsens the situation in the long run. I'm sure true friends would not mind you explaining your depression.

[The Enderwoman]

Don't start cutting. In the begining, it's just a way to release you emotion, but then it becomes an addiction. If you need a way to let your emotion out, I suggest writing about it or maybe even taking up a sport if you haven't already. I know it sounds stupid, but running and boxing really help me with my cutting. Its a good way to get your mind off things and just focus on what you're doung at that moment. I find that the feeling of relief last longer than with cutting. When you cut, you only get relief for a few minutes. Trust me, its not worth it.

And if your friend is a good friend, he WILL talk to you again.

[ByXaz]

Please don't cut it's not worth it. It may help for a little while, but in the end it makes it worse. I think if you go to closer friends you trust and tell them they will understand. Keeping it inside you can't be good.

[Versae]

For 3 years, i was like that too. I never told anyone. Even my bestfriend. I kept it inside. Then it bursted. it even came to a point where they had to drug me. So yep, just tell even one friend. I'm sure they won't mind. Today, i'm open to my friend. They'll support you and tell you not to cut. Just please don't cut. Focus on other things.

[numbness]

this is going to sound really silly but one of my friends whos 30 has been depressed for about 10 years and the only way that she can make herself not want to cut is to say out loud all the things she loves be it really silly or things that are important, so you could say "i love chips,i love swimming,i love my mum"ect and you keep saying this until you smile. when i remember this technique i use it and it works ,just try it :)

[jacobtheman]

Thanks guys. I will try not to!