Watching gay porn? IM SO CONFUSED. Tearing me apart!

[anonteen]

Im a 17 year old male and im really confused, let me start


When i started to enter high school i was bullied intensely, actually all throughout middle school too. People would call me gay all the time, i didn't understand why, considering I've never questioned my self. When the bullying got worse started to cut, and when that ended i released my tension though masturbation. I masterbated to straight porn for 3 years and never questioned a thing. Sophomore year everything was normal and no one bother me, i guessed they had just grown up and stopped. Then i started to get panic attacks and became emetophobic, which ended me up in a private school with kids that have dislexia, i mean, i do too but i feel like I've bin put in the loony bin, and everyone is pretty dumb, and they people who aren't are REALLY socially awkward or bully people. It started all over again. I was called gay and stuff and people said it was because of the way i 'acted'. it really ticked me off. Which made me punch someone in the face, and that made people think i was deep in the closet. Then i met this girl named ryan who was my friend, and me and her friend lauren hung out and they wanted to have sex with me, I quickly agreed, and ryan apparently had bin obsessed with me but i REALLY didnt like here, i liked her friend luren much more. And ryan tried to have sex with me first and i couldn't get a boner. It was so embarrassing I still think it might have bin the anxiety and the meds i was taking. Anyway, she asked me if maybe i was gay and, if i was SHURE that really pissed me off so i threw them both out of the house. Then i started to explore gay stuff some more online and stuff. Everything was not at all my questions. I started to watch gay porn, and i became really aroused by it. I had never bin though, and i think guys are gross and gay sex is gross. Although, i dont particularly like american girls. I really like asian girls. I draw only girls in my art and i fine them as a work of art. And i always dreamed of marrying a girl. But i like gay porn and i cant explain this!? can someone help me a bit! By the way, i have never fantasized about men at all.

[Bazinga]

You might just be curious, lots of straight guys say they like watching gay porn. You could be gay, you could be straight - saying you always dreamed of marrying a girl doesn't mean you're straight and bc you might 'act gay' that doesn't mean your gay either. If you find that you start liking guys more sexually and emotionally then your probably gay/bi.

[anonteen]

You might just be curious, lots of straight guys say they like watching gay porn. You could be gay, you could be straight - saying you always dreamed of marrying a girl doesn't mean you're straight and bc you might 'act gay' that doesn't mean your gay either. If you find that you start liking guys more sexually and emotionally then your probably gay/bi.

Its just really confusing, because i think dating a guy would be really gross and uncomfortable.

[Magenta]

Porn is porn. Porn is not real. Honestly, what you like in porn hardly reflects upon your life as porn is so far from reality and anyone's actual sex lives. Lots of straight guys like gay porn for whatever reason. Lots of straight women like lesbian porn.

Also, when it comes to homosexual porn, I find that sometimes you can be more aroused as you're seeing something you relate to. Not the sexuality but body and experience. You know how those two guys are feeling. Women know how those two lesbians are feeling 'cause arousal is arousal and we're more closely connected to our own sex because we share the same body. I don't know how to explain it. It's less being attracted to them and more the feeling. Does that make sense at all?

No one can tell you your sexuality but if you believe you're straight, porn doesn't really tell you anything at all.

[Luminous]

I think it's because it seems more forbidden and naughty to watch a kind of sex you would never had. I am a girl that likes girls and I like to watch gay guy porn. Don't be so worried by what anyone says, you are a wonderful you and nobody can change that.

[Twilly F. Sniper]

I think it's because it seems more forbidden and naughty to watch a kind of sex you would never had. I am a girl that likes girls and I like to watch gay guy porn. Don't be so worried by what anyone says, you are a wonderful you and nobody can change that.

Agreed. This seems to be the real answer to your inquiry there mate.

[justin 13]

Dude, I think you have 2 stop watching porn stuff, is really bad influence over young people.

[anonteen]

Dude, I think you have 2 stop watching porn stuff, is really bad influence over young people.

Agreed. This seems to be the real answer to your inquiry there mate.

I think it's because it seems more forbidden and naughty to watch a kind of sex you would never had. I am a girl that likes girls and I like to watch gay guy porn. Don't be so worried by what anyone says, you are a wonderful you and nobody can change that.

Porn is porn. Porn is not real. Honestly, what you like in porn hardly reflects upon your life as porn is so far from reality and anyone's actual sex lives. Lots of straight guys like gay porn for whatever reason. Lots of straight women like lesbian porn.

Also, when it comes to homosexual porn, I find that sometimes you can be more aroused as you're seeing something you relate to. Not the sexuality but body and experience. You know how those two guys are feeling. Women know how those two lesbians are feeling 'cause arousal is arousal and we're more closely connected to our own sex because we share the same body. I don't know how to explain it. It's less being attracted to them and more the feeling. Does that make sense at all?

No one can tell you your sexuality but if you believe you're straight, porn doesn't really tell you anything at all.

You might just be curious, lots of straight guys say they like watching gay porn. You could be gay, you could be straight - saying you always dreamed of marrying a girl doesn't mean you're straight and bc you might 'act gay' that doesn't mean your gay either. If you find that you start liking guys more sexually and emotionally then your probably gay/bi.

Thanks to all, This helps alot. I have no problem if i was gay, but i feel out of place and uncomfortable when it comes to gay stuff. Id ont know, Sigh :/

[anonteen]

Dude, I think you have 2 stop watching porn stuff, is really bad influence over young people.

This is very true. Its something im really not proud of. I started watching porn when i was 13 and i have taken breaks but ill try to stop.

[NeuroTiger]

Dude, I think you have 2 stop watching porn stuff, is really bad influence over young people.

That's true but it's really hard to stop.
I used to limit the number of minutes I spend on porn per month.

[justinglives]

Thanks to all, This helps alot. I have no problem if i was gay, but i feel out of place and uncomfortable when it comes to gay stuff. Id ont know, Sigh :/

I believe, just me, in my tiny little brain............

Humans can all relate to the opposite, or the same, gender for companionship, friendship, support, all out sex, messing around, whatever. It just requires the right situation, the right person, the right enviornment, the right opportunity. Just look at how many guys and girls "experiment" but are totally "str8" in later life. And look how many don't, and are gay!!
Seriously dude, just go with the flow, and if it does it for ya, just enjoy and don't put labels on yourself. Labels are what make people nuts!!! If you gotta put a label on it, it's called:
NORMAL!

PM me if you wanna chat!

:D :yeah: :D

[Luminous]

This is very true. Its something im really not proud of. I started watching porn when i was 13 and i have taken breaks but ill try to stop.

As long as you know that real sex isn't like porn, and that porn isn't an accurate sex-ed teacher, you don't really need to stop unless you want to. It's when kids thing real sex is like porn is when there's a problem. You're almost of legal age to watch it now even.

[teen.jpg]

You would know if your gay or not. The porn you watch has no effect on that.

[Laquifa]

It's alright for straight guys to watch gay porn. some guys feel it's less fake than straight porn, others just have a tendency to watch it.

[teen.jpg]

It's normal for straight guys to watch gay porn.

That could be debated. It's more "okay" then it is "mobile".

[Josh from SoCal]

Im a 17 year old male and im really confused, let me start


When i started to enter high school i was bullied intensely, actually all throughout middle school too. People would call me gay all the time, i didn't understand why, considering I've never questioned my self. When the bullying got worse started to cut, and when that ended i released my tension though masturbation. I masterbated to straight porn for 3 years and never questioned a thing. Sophomore year everything was normal and no one bother me, i guessed they had just grown up and stopped. Then i started to get panic attacks and became emetophobic, which ended me up in a private school with kids that have dislexia, i mean, i do too but i feel like I've bin put in the loony bin, and everyone is pretty dumb, and they people who aren't are REALLY socially awkward or bully people. It started all over again. I was called gay and stuff and people said it was because of the way i 'acted'. it really ticked me off. Which made me punch someone in the face, and that made people think i was deep in the closet. Then i met this girl named ryan who was my friend, and me and her friend lauren hung out and they wanted to have sex with me, I quickly agreed, and ryan apparently had bin obsessed with me but i REALLY didnt like here, i liked her friend luren much more. And ryan tried to have sex with me first and i couldn't get a boner. It was so embarrassing I still think it might have bin the anxiety and the meds i was taking. Anyway, she asked me if maybe i was gay and, if i was SHURE that really pissed me off so i threw them both out of the house. Then i started to explore gay stuff some more online and stuff. Everything was not at all my questions. I started to watch gay porn, and i became really aroused by it. I had never bin though, and i think guys are gross and gay sex is gross. Although, i dont particularly like american girls. I really like asian girls. I draw only girls in my art and i fine them as a work of art. And i always dreamed of marrying a girl. But i like gay porn and i cant explain this!? can someone help me a bit! By the way, i have never fantasized about men at all.

Your issues that you need to deal with aren't about your sexuality. There is nothing unusual about that part of you. What I'm more worried about is the bullying you are having to endure. You should address that directly with your school and your parents.

As for the whole thing with the two girls and not being able to get into it, that could be from lots of things completely unrelated to your sexual preferences. Like you said, the meds, your mindset at that moment, your attraction to someone else.... maybe you were nervous. or scared of being caught, or tired, or hungry or distracted... or any of a hundred other reasons.

Try not to let other people pressure you into "deciding" or to question your sexuality. Watch this (all of it) and then you should understand yourself better. It helped me a LOT. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VAJ-5J21Rd0&noredirect=1

[salty]

You may or may not be gay. I am attracted to the person and if are attracted to them and like them then the sex isn't gross.

I am more mentally and physically attracted to men.

Don't pressure yourself. It will all come naturally in the end.

[anonteen]

Your issues that you need to deal with aren't about your sexuality. There is nothing unusual about that part of you. What I'm more worried about is the bullying you are having to endure. You should address that directly with your school and your parents.

As for the whole thing with the two girls and not being able to get into it, that could be from lots of things completely unrelated to your sexual preferences. Like you said, the meds, your mindset at that moment, your attraction to someone else.... maybe you were nervous. or scared of being caught, or tired, or hungry or distracted... or any of a hundred other reasons.

Try not to let other people pressure you into "deciding" or to question your sexuality. Watch this (all of it) and then you should understand yourself better. It helped me a LOT. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VAJ-5J21Rd0&noredirect=1

Thank you for your definitive answer.

[Josh from SoCal]

did you watch the video? it's pretty amazing.

[gaboflr]

You have to reflect about yourself and your feelings, if this keeps you can experience sexually with a guy. I define gay a person that can fall in love of a person of the same gender. If you like guys sexually talking that means that you're open that doesn't mean you're gay.:yes: