sqishy
August 25th, 2013, 03:30 PM
You can check out my reply to the introduction survey to get a quick glance at me and my life (note: my sibling is a sister, I didn't specify there) - or you can stay here to find out more.
I am 17.74 years and exactly 6479 days old (because I like to be technical sometimes). I am thin because of my super-high metabolism which I better enjoy while I have, 5 foot 8 inches tall (still growing), with short-medium brown hair and brown eyes. I've started to shave since a few months ago too. Enough said about that.
I am and introvert, meaning that I prefer to be by myself instead of others. Not that I don't like being with other people, but mostly people I know, and not for a lot of time. I am a bit shy and almost never go to discos/out/parties (last time was my sister's 21st on December 21st last year). I don't use Facebook, partly because I got hassle from ppl at my school when I had a profile in 2009-2010, and because I never used it much.
I also had a Twitter account that I forgot the password for and is now forever idle, making me make a new one which I also forgot the password for. So I don't use that either.
In 2009 I created 3 YouTube accounts for no reason than to look classy, making no videos and only making playlists of sciency stuff. So I deleted all of those in 2010.
In 2011 I created another account (if you want the username PM me), where I made a few videos on random stuff like the neighbours' hens and a the lunar eclipse of June 15. I am however active practically every day in holidays and weekendly to check my suscription videos and comment on them and others. So I am reachable there. I can be very social on the internet, when my identity is unknown. That'd be my shyness.
I have very few non-internet friends, because quality comes before quantity for me :D. One of them is in her 50s (I get along better with adults), the other 2 are 16 and 17. As for the internet, I know some acquaintances from a Funorb game, one who I got to know a lot about and chat daily on Skype.
I am doing 7 subjects for my 6th and final year of secondary school (high school for you USA people): Maths, English and Irish are mandatory, the other 4 options are Physics, Geography, Chemistry and Biology. All are advanced/higher level except Irish, because I don't like it and I am worse at languages. My fav subject is physics, my least fav being Irish. 6 of my subject's grades for my Leaving Cert exams are counted into points. I need 540 to get into Theoretical Physics in TCD, meaning a lot of straight As. But CHALLENGE ACCEPTED :D.
Since I was 12 I got the idea and have generally come to terms with my sexuality as gay. From 2007 onwards I found guys here and there physically attractive in different degrees, and I like some of their personalities too. I knew it was happening, but never allowed myself to think about it or come face-to-face with it, until June of this year. It was in 2009 onwards that I started really liking this guy in my school, in the same year as me until he didn't do the optional 4th year and was ahead of me until he left for university this summer. I got this deep crush on him; I loved him. Since I last saw him in May of this year I've been getting worse mood swings than usual, and am having a difficult time trying to get over it. He never knew about any of this and was straight, so it couldn't go anywhere anyways. I was uncomfortable around him, probably because I was thinking of how I was presenting myself. I did a tally of how many people, male and female, I find physically attractive in some form or another to whatever level, from mid-July to the start of this month. The tall ended with 78 males, 0 females.
I came out to my parents when I wrote stuff I never talked about ever before in a sort of diary, on June 26th. I showed my mum it just before midnight of the same day; we then both cried a lot. My dad found out a day later, he didn't get emotional. They are both fine with it, which is great. My sister still doesn't fully know, but she has seen the 5'x3' rainbow flag in my newly-organised bedroom wall 2 days ago; I am putting myself to come out to her tomorrow. Two of my friends also know now, and the other will find out this week when I return to school (already on Tuesday). I then hope, as part of my plan to stop being shy and a little more social, come out to people my school soon after.
I am generally different than most other people, personally and socially. I took life too seriously and overthinked things in a strict logical way until June of this year, when I defined my sexual identity and sorted other things about myself. Now I am focusing on experience rather than logic, by just living in the moment and opening up as a person :). I have learnt that life is not something you can put logic and rules onto all the time. In that way I think I've changed more in the past 2 months than I did in the 2 years previous. More so, I feel like I'm changing faster than ever before, which is exciting and nerve-wracking at the same time. An mini IQ test came out of my christmas cracker last christmas, and I decided to have a go on it a day later. It's not a proper test, but the result was in the 140s. It explains why I think about still SO MUCH, and why I get mood swings from it. I know a lot of stuff other people my age don't, but I am way behind with being social and fitting in with other people. If I could have a week of blissful ignorance with life like others do, I would gladly take it.
I am not a fashion person. The clothes I wear are for function over looks, all being white,grey,black or navy, and a few dark green. In the past year I have started to take my appearance more carefully, like showering regularly and hygiene etc. I recently got some hair gel, but I don't know if I'll ever use it in the near future. Hopefully I'll put myself up to it. My current personal challenges are breaking all the rules of limitation and restriction I made in the years previously, being more open socially, and coming out.
I like science fiction and comedy drama films. I, as part of not being normal, got no effect from watching The Shining, and that puts into question if I am allowed to call psychological horror another genre I like, since I don't get affected by a lot of it. I did, with my parents and relatives, see a Spanish English-subtitled film recently though, where a man getting forceably and gradually turned transgender freak me out quite a bit. It's ironic that, me being a LGBT person, I get disturbed by forced transgender more than the straights in the room did.
I like epic, trip hop, alternate rock, house and electronic music. Certain bands I like and listen to are Two Steps From Hell, Emancipator, Pink Floyd and Fracture Design. Without them my life would be a darker place. I don't hate any particular genre of music, being open to them all, but heavy metal is the music I like the least.
My favourite colour is orange. I first liked purple as a child, then green, but it shifted to orange when I was 13-14. I am liking yellow a lot too, so maybe it'll change to that. I like white a lot too.
I am not a religious person, though I was brought up in a Catholic primary and currently in a Catholic secondary school, and got baptized, with communion and confirmation. I don't see myself as christian or with any religion that has a god. Despite me in the past having a strict and slightly OCD routine in life, I kept my mind open to everything, and still do. So I believe that ghosts, magic, time travel and parallel universes could very well exist.
My simplified outlook on life is that life, the universe and everything is infinitly more complicated than I can possibly imagine it to be, there is so much more to see, and that what I am now is the dark ages compared to what I will be like in a year's time (same can be done to my 16-year old self: I was sooooo outdated back then). There are so many ways to view and enter different perspectives of this physical world, that we create our own worlds within our minds, with our friends, with computer games, with languages, with art, science, religion and exploration. If only the sun, earth and moon existed, I'm sure I'd never get bored with it for a thousand years if I could live that long. There's so much everywhere. It helps when I think of that :)
Even still, I get mood swings from taking other perspectives on life, which I tend to do a lot when I think a lot. Examples include what I could've done when I was younger and not waste my early teen years inside my own mind, my crush, mortality, how life can be so much better than it is now, war, etc.
I've got 4 mood swings, from elation to depression and then an absence of mood, in the past 3 days. I'm probably going to get another one tomorrow. Ugh.
I could talk about more, but then this wouldn't be an introduction. I've talked a lot about bigger and more serious things here, if you want to know more about me down-to-earth, just PM me or chat. I am here to share ideas, thoughts, opinions, experiences and the like, to make friends and try and keep a connection to the outside world.
If you've read all of this, or any of it for that matter thank you :D
I am 17.74 years and exactly 6479 days old (because I like to be technical sometimes). I am thin because of my super-high metabolism which I better enjoy while I have, 5 foot 8 inches tall (still growing), with short-medium brown hair and brown eyes. I've started to shave since a few months ago too. Enough said about that.
I am and introvert, meaning that I prefer to be by myself instead of others. Not that I don't like being with other people, but mostly people I know, and not for a lot of time. I am a bit shy and almost never go to discos/out/parties (last time was my sister's 21st on December 21st last year). I don't use Facebook, partly because I got hassle from ppl at my school when I had a profile in 2009-2010, and because I never used it much.
I also had a Twitter account that I forgot the password for and is now forever idle, making me make a new one which I also forgot the password for. So I don't use that either.
In 2009 I created 3 YouTube accounts for no reason than to look classy, making no videos and only making playlists of sciency stuff. So I deleted all of those in 2010.
In 2011 I created another account (if you want the username PM me), where I made a few videos on random stuff like the neighbours' hens and a the lunar eclipse of June 15. I am however active practically every day in holidays and weekendly to check my suscription videos and comment on them and others. So I am reachable there. I can be very social on the internet, when my identity is unknown. That'd be my shyness.
I have very few non-internet friends, because quality comes before quantity for me :D. One of them is in her 50s (I get along better with adults), the other 2 are 16 and 17. As for the internet, I know some acquaintances from a Funorb game, one who I got to know a lot about and chat daily on Skype.
I am doing 7 subjects for my 6th and final year of secondary school (high school for you USA people): Maths, English and Irish are mandatory, the other 4 options are Physics, Geography, Chemistry and Biology. All are advanced/higher level except Irish, because I don't like it and I am worse at languages. My fav subject is physics, my least fav being Irish. 6 of my subject's grades for my Leaving Cert exams are counted into points. I need 540 to get into Theoretical Physics in TCD, meaning a lot of straight As. But CHALLENGE ACCEPTED :D.
Since I was 12 I got the idea and have generally come to terms with my sexuality as gay. From 2007 onwards I found guys here and there physically attractive in different degrees, and I like some of their personalities too. I knew it was happening, but never allowed myself to think about it or come face-to-face with it, until June of this year. It was in 2009 onwards that I started really liking this guy in my school, in the same year as me until he didn't do the optional 4th year and was ahead of me until he left for university this summer. I got this deep crush on him; I loved him. Since I last saw him in May of this year I've been getting worse mood swings than usual, and am having a difficult time trying to get over it. He never knew about any of this and was straight, so it couldn't go anywhere anyways. I was uncomfortable around him, probably because I was thinking of how I was presenting myself. I did a tally of how many people, male and female, I find physically attractive in some form or another to whatever level, from mid-July to the start of this month. The tall ended with 78 males, 0 females.
I came out to my parents when I wrote stuff I never talked about ever before in a sort of diary, on June 26th. I showed my mum it just before midnight of the same day; we then both cried a lot. My dad found out a day later, he didn't get emotional. They are both fine with it, which is great. My sister still doesn't fully know, but she has seen the 5'x3' rainbow flag in my newly-organised bedroom wall 2 days ago; I am putting myself to come out to her tomorrow. Two of my friends also know now, and the other will find out this week when I return to school (already on Tuesday). I then hope, as part of my plan to stop being shy and a little more social, come out to people my school soon after.
I am generally different than most other people, personally and socially. I took life too seriously and overthinked things in a strict logical way until June of this year, when I defined my sexual identity and sorted other things about myself. Now I am focusing on experience rather than logic, by just living in the moment and opening up as a person :). I have learnt that life is not something you can put logic and rules onto all the time. In that way I think I've changed more in the past 2 months than I did in the 2 years previous. More so, I feel like I'm changing faster than ever before, which is exciting and nerve-wracking at the same time. An mini IQ test came out of my christmas cracker last christmas, and I decided to have a go on it a day later. It's not a proper test, but the result was in the 140s. It explains why I think about still SO MUCH, and why I get mood swings from it. I know a lot of stuff other people my age don't, but I am way behind with being social and fitting in with other people. If I could have a week of blissful ignorance with life like others do, I would gladly take it.
I am not a fashion person. The clothes I wear are for function over looks, all being white,grey,black or navy, and a few dark green. In the past year I have started to take my appearance more carefully, like showering regularly and hygiene etc. I recently got some hair gel, but I don't know if I'll ever use it in the near future. Hopefully I'll put myself up to it. My current personal challenges are breaking all the rules of limitation and restriction I made in the years previously, being more open socially, and coming out.
I like science fiction and comedy drama films. I, as part of not being normal, got no effect from watching The Shining, and that puts into question if I am allowed to call psychological horror another genre I like, since I don't get affected by a lot of it. I did, with my parents and relatives, see a Spanish English-subtitled film recently though, where a man getting forceably and gradually turned transgender freak me out quite a bit. It's ironic that, me being a LGBT person, I get disturbed by forced transgender more than the straights in the room did.
I like epic, trip hop, alternate rock, house and electronic music. Certain bands I like and listen to are Two Steps From Hell, Emancipator, Pink Floyd and Fracture Design. Without them my life would be a darker place. I don't hate any particular genre of music, being open to them all, but heavy metal is the music I like the least.
My favourite colour is orange. I first liked purple as a child, then green, but it shifted to orange when I was 13-14. I am liking yellow a lot too, so maybe it'll change to that. I like white a lot too.
I am not a religious person, though I was brought up in a Catholic primary and currently in a Catholic secondary school, and got baptized, with communion and confirmation. I don't see myself as christian or with any religion that has a god. Despite me in the past having a strict and slightly OCD routine in life, I kept my mind open to everything, and still do. So I believe that ghosts, magic, time travel and parallel universes could very well exist.
My simplified outlook on life is that life, the universe and everything is infinitly more complicated than I can possibly imagine it to be, there is so much more to see, and that what I am now is the dark ages compared to what I will be like in a year's time (same can be done to my 16-year old self: I was sooooo outdated back then). There are so many ways to view and enter different perspectives of this physical world, that we create our own worlds within our minds, with our friends, with computer games, with languages, with art, science, religion and exploration. If only the sun, earth and moon existed, I'm sure I'd never get bored with it for a thousand years if I could live that long. There's so much everywhere. It helps when I think of that :)
Even still, I get mood swings from taking other perspectives on life, which I tend to do a lot when I think a lot. Examples include what I could've done when I was younger and not waste my early teen years inside my own mind, my crush, mortality, how life can be so much better than it is now, war, etc.
I've got 4 mood swings, from elation to depression and then an absence of mood, in the past 3 days. I'm probably going to get another one tomorrow. Ugh.
I could talk about more, but then this wouldn't be an introduction. I've talked a lot about bigger and more serious things here, if you want to know more about me down-to-earth, just PM me or chat. I am here to share ideas, thoughts, opinions, experiences and the like, to make friends and try and keep a connection to the outside world.
If you've read all of this, or any of it for that matter thank you :D