NA Meetings or No?

[brennacharles]

I just recently got released from a mental hospital for my severe recurrent depression and anxiety disorders. I started using drugs when I was fifteen, and now I am almost nineteen. Mostly I just smoked tons of pot, but I started messing around with harder things like pills too. After I got out of the hospital, I told myself I was going to quit drugs all together in order to keep my family close, but I quickly starting doing them again. I was worse when I got out. I don't sleep, which is bad because I'm on tons of new medications, including trazodone, so sometimes I skip it. I find myself sneaking out to get high with my friends, and I drink now which wasn't usual for me before.
My counselor suggested strongly that I attend NA meetings, but I had to stop seeing her because of issues with insurance. Now I have no one pushing me to go, and no one who will be disappointed in me if I don't go, because my family didn't even know I had plotted to attend NA for a short period of time.
I'm not sure if I'm asking for motivation or support, but I'd rather not go to NA because of my anxiety. I'd rather learn to just quit cold turkey.

[JamesSuperBoy]

I know you say you would not want to go - because of anxiety. But is it something you feel you could try even a few times and see if it does help - Is there a way you could maybe contact NA and meet with some people not in an actual meeting but just to make the contact and maybe get some help if you wanted to attend regular meetings.

[Allain1996]

I understand that you don't want to go to NA meetings because you're anxious about them, but they honestly are your best chance of getting off all the drugs and alcohol and then having the support to stay off of them! "Learning" to quit cold turkey from all the stuff you're on is next to impossible, and most likely will only lead to you being extremely unhappy and likely relapsing without the support of others that are going through the same thing as you!