proverbs31
August 22nd, 2013, 01:58 PM
I've known this guy since 7th grade. We were friends. As we got older, girls would talk about him like he was a god or something. But to me he was just X. Then one day, we started talking. Kept talking, and it turned into more. Then he asked me out and we started dating. He was the first guy I dated because I wanted to. I had 3 previous boyfriends but I felt obligated to date them; like I had to because I told said I cared about them. But with X, I did things I'd never done before. I became the girl that was ALWAYS talking about her boyfriend, and when I wasn't talking about him, I wanted to talk about him. And I thought about him every second of every day. We were like, perfect. He didn't put up with my smart mouth and I didn't drool all over him like he was a sex god. Then something happened. He kissed someone else at a party. He was high and everything, but whatever. I broke up with him. After I did it I instantly regretted it. We decided that we needed to try and work through it. But we never talked, and when we did it was very short. He would text me and say he loved me, and that he ultimately knew where home was. Or sometimes he'd say he didn't want a relationship and he didn't know what he wanted.
One day I had all of my friends over, and he found out and came over. When we were alone he said, "You know I'm going to marry you right?" Then he kissed me. We didn't talk much after that. We talked a couple of times and he would say he loved me and other stuff.
He is currently back with his girlfriend from 9th grade.
I don't know if I'm over him. I see his face and still smile like an idiot. But I'm super happy with my life. Not a fake happy, but I really am content. But when I see pictures of them I don't get mad, or sad. I sometimes wish it was me, but if I was given the chance to back with him, I don't know if I would. I don't have any of his stuff, I don't stalk his instagram. So I'm not sure why I still feel like this..
One day I had all of my friends over, and he found out and came over. When we were alone he said, "You know I'm going to marry you right?" Then he kissed me. We didn't talk much after that. We talked a couple of times and he would say he loved me and other stuff.
He is currently back with his girlfriend from 9th grade.
I don't know if I'm over him. I see his face and still smile like an idiot. But I'm super happy with my life. Not a fake happy, but I really am content. But when I see pictures of them I don't get mad, or sad. I sometimes wish it was me, but if I was given the chance to back with him, I don't know if I would. I don't have any of his stuff, I don't stalk his instagram. So I'm not sure why I still feel like this..