Despot
August 15th, 2013, 09:46 PM
Hi, I'm person that cares about others and whiling to everything for friends and all close people to me. But everyone just leave me... why? I was good kid had good friends when i was little and then my parents devorce i went with mom and brother to city from village. I was shy when i came in city and when i went to new school, i wasnt use to that. Everyone one was making fun of my accent how funny it is and how childy voice i had. In that school i had only 3-4 friends that i was good with and that we were hanging out together and having nice time. Every teacher hated me.. i really dont know why and they always did give me bad grades even if i did good.
Then friends started to talk to me less and i was lonely and started running from school classes, then i got punished by mom and teachers. Then i went with friend in park and drank 1 sip of beer and then went back home, and mom did smell it and said that im alcoholic.. and i got beaten by her. Then when i was done with that school, i went to high school and also i had 2-3 friends because all others are "wanna be" something. Than again teachers hated me even in that school and gave me bad grades. So i was so upset how unfair this was to me and didnt go to school anymore but meanwhile my mom left me and brother alone and she went to germany to earn us money.
So i was like "she wont know it" and i didnt go to school and i started playing video games alot because it was only place i enjoyed myself. Then she found out and she threaten me if i dont go she will throw me on street and then i was "ok,ok i will go" but i didnt... i woke one morning and thinking should i go to school or no? and i said no, because i was abused by everyone there and its not nice. So then i did ditch 10th grade. Then i found about Steam and it was nice.. i tought this wouldnt go wrong.. and i had amazing friends there.
I then met some girl from America and i did play games with her and we did talk about stuff that she didnt share with anyone.. only me, and i gave her support and all that.. but last 3 months she just wont play games with me or even communicate that much.. Whenever i want to play game with her she just say "ow my friend is on skype calling me, wait a second.. brb soon" and then she just dont reply.. even if i say something, and if i ask is everything ok she say it is.. but man 3 months to always just deny me and its so bad feeling to me :(. Then my old friend that i know 2 years(online friend) i bought him 2 steam games that he was dreaming about, and we played... but he left me also.. so what is wrong with me?
Today i have only 3-4 friends from League of Legends and thats it.. all friends from high school and middle school just dont reply to me when i want to go out with them. And its always me that ask's because no one will ask me first :(. I'm so lonely now.. .you cant imagine.. i smile alot and im happy person "still happy from outside" but from inside im destroyed by friends that i used to trust. I will probably continue with school this year to give it a last chance..
I'm sorry for long post... but i just let all out from me.. at least hear, because no one want to hear my stories, its always i that help other and do good and after it everyone leave me.
Then friends started to talk to me less and i was lonely and started running from school classes, then i got punished by mom and teachers. Then i went with friend in park and drank 1 sip of beer and then went back home, and mom did smell it and said that im alcoholic.. and i got beaten by her. Then when i was done with that school, i went to high school and also i had 2-3 friends because all others are "wanna be" something. Than again teachers hated me even in that school and gave me bad grades. So i was so upset how unfair this was to me and didnt go to school anymore but meanwhile my mom left me and brother alone and she went to germany to earn us money.
So i was like "she wont know it" and i didnt go to school and i started playing video games alot because it was only place i enjoyed myself. Then she found out and she threaten me if i dont go she will throw me on street and then i was "ok,ok i will go" but i didnt... i woke one morning and thinking should i go to school or no? and i said no, because i was abused by everyone there and its not nice. So then i did ditch 10th grade. Then i found about Steam and it was nice.. i tought this wouldnt go wrong.. and i had amazing friends there.
I then met some girl from America and i did play games with her and we did talk about stuff that she didnt share with anyone.. only me, and i gave her support and all that.. but last 3 months she just wont play games with me or even communicate that much.. Whenever i want to play game with her she just say "ow my friend is on skype calling me, wait a second.. brb soon" and then she just dont reply.. even if i say something, and if i ask is everything ok she say it is.. but man 3 months to always just deny me and its so bad feeling to me :(. Then my old friend that i know 2 years(online friend) i bought him 2 steam games that he was dreaming about, and we played... but he left me also.. so what is wrong with me?
Today i have only 3-4 friends from League of Legends and thats it.. all friends from high school and middle school just dont reply to me when i want to go out with them. And its always me that ask's because no one will ask me first :(. I'm so lonely now.. .you cant imagine.. i smile alot and im happy person "still happy from outside" but from inside im destroyed by friends that i used to trust. I will probably continue with school this year to give it a last chance..
I'm sorry for long post... but i just let all out from me.. at least hear, because no one want to hear my stories, its always i that help other and do good and after it everyone leave me.