What's the point in fighting for a lost cause?

[Silent Tears]

I hate feeling like this. I hate remembering all the evil things people have done to me. Things you can't begin to imagine. Other people get nice things, like a family who loves them. Why couldn't I have that? Why am I cursed? Why does everyone hurt me so much? :( They push me to the point, that I started cutting. Even then, they hurt me and make it about them. And, my best friend tells me I should start cutting again. I swear, I feel like Amanda Todd. "I just want a friend..." When I was little, I would cry and image someone hugging me.. telling me that everything will be okay. But, instead my family screamed, and threw things at me. They would say such mean things... when all I wanted was someone to love me. People find it fun to hurt me. I don't understand why :( I can't take it anymore. I hate thinking about suicide, every day. I hate not having anyone to talk to. I HATE when I help other people, but they won't help me. I get told to stop talking, because my life is to sad for them. Music is the only thing keeping me together. Anytime I try to talk to someone, I get yelled at. They tell me to get over it. :what: How could you look at your daughter, see the cuts on her skin, and have the guts to tell her to "get over it" :what:

I just wanted family that hugged me, when I cried. I wanted a friend, so I wouldn't feel so alone. Now, I just want people to stop hurting me. Is it really to much to ask? I'm sick of feeling like I'm fighting for a lost cause... I'm sick of people pushing me to fucking much, and then wanting respect. What is the fucking point? Everyone says it gets better, but it just keeps getting worse! One person can only take so much. Please... just make it stop.

[1_21Guns]

I was very much so in your place in around 2009/2010 I think, I found myself curled up in the middle of my room crying 'why.. why me' along with serval other self destructive behaviours, but after all that fight, a battle that lasted for around 2/3 years, I'm in a better place now, I'm finally in a better place, it does get better eventually hun
Sometimes people have a tenancy to react to things they don't understand cruelly, or harshly because they don't understand it, it scares them and they don't know how to respond to the situation, while particularly grown adults should know to respond better sometimes they don't.
You'll find some real friends in time, ones that want to listen to you, in the mean time feel free to message me if you need to vent things out :) :hug3:

[Matt_97]

Its okay! This feels so familiar to me, i found myself crying myself to sleep some nights, this was only 6 months ago! Its not easy, it really isn't i can't sugar coat the truth. But friends they come and go but us here at VT are always here for a chat. If you just feel like venting some anger, sadness or just even a general conversation. Feel free to leave a visitor message on my page or when i get to 100 posts leave me a private one. I am sure you will find a number if people like us on here that have went through similar problems and the majority are here to help you!!

You say that things are getting better, they will, i began to believe they wouldn't and i almost lost hope. But i fought through it and managed to make it out alive.

Please when ever you feel down or upset come straight to VT we are always here to help you :hug3:

[Cygnus]

You think it is a lost cause, that is why you do not win the fight. How can you win the fight if you have already given up all hope? You want respect? Make people respect you, show them that you can rise and become a respectable person.

[JamesSuperBoy]

Its never lost - keep fighting