A great thing undone

[suicidalbutter]

what can I do? there is nothing more,
I can't fix what I have broken.

it's disintegrating right in front of my eyes,
I cannot do more or less.

I must be forced to watch it crumble till it is no more
I must be forced to watch it cease out of existence

I must watch it be torn and shredded
I must watch it start to lose itself in the loneliest of ways

I must feel it leaving that space in my heart empty
I must let this feeling consume my essence

but one thing is certain
I cannot go through the nights like this anymore

but to say goodbye, would be too difficult
goodbye would mean forever

I do not wish for this to be gone for that length,
I just wish it to be mended

I am afraid this once great thing is now undone, however.

Like a ball of yarn played with by a cat
it has unraveled directly in front of my eyes

There is nothing left to fix
There is nothing more to be done