Daltonyio
August 11th, 2013, 11:45 PM
My bad times
When I was younger 3rd-7t grade my brother was heavy into drugs, my dad was an alchoholics and my mom was a mess, my older brother was violent and me and my twin brother were just silent, this went on till the February of 7th grade when my brother was sent to rehab for a year, midway through eigth grade my brother came back, My dad quit drinking cold turkey, And we were all better, But two months prior to my brother coming home, We left the only house I have ever been, I was literally losing my shit, I plotted ways to make the sale fall through, I would cry way too much, and I was so mad at my parents, But when I moved I was ok, I still went to my old school, (I made my parents drive me 40 minutes each morning) and I was dreading the end of the year, I was always known as the person with advice and Being absolutely nonjudgmental. Over the summer this year, I am freaking out I have been crying and having severe panic attacks, I called one person once, But she's only person I would ever cry in front off or admit how I really feel, I know I am blowing things out of proportion but my mind acts like its jumping off a never ending skyscraper
I always try my best to be nice, handsome, presentable, normal and I try not to stand out
I hate social situations and I had a fight with my mom because she made me go to a Fourth of July party to meet our new neighbors, I was freaking out on the way there and my brothers were telling me that I need to shut up and calm down
I just freak out when I have to talk to people new and have to change
And some days I'm so happy and feel so thankfull to lie and some days I just want to cry cause I feel idiotic for freaking out and wasting myself,
I have never cut but I have punched myself, slapped, and tore my hair out and just cried at myself,
I don't know if I am normal because i am too ashamed to tell my parents for help because I don't want to cause any problems or cause stress
I have such a great life, My family is so kind and we all are so close now, and I have a nice house and my parents has more money since we moved but. Always feel unright, like I don't even know,
I always take care of my body skin and hair so people will look at me better, and I don't even know why I do it
Please someone help, I feel like i don't know
And I would never take my own life or cut because I just couldn't, but I have thought about it but I never think I would pull through and I wouldn't because god loves me and everyone
Thank you every one, good night guys
:)
When I was younger 3rd-7t grade my brother was heavy into drugs, my dad was an alchoholics and my mom was a mess, my older brother was violent and me and my twin brother were just silent, this went on till the February of 7th grade when my brother was sent to rehab for a year, midway through eigth grade my brother came back, My dad quit drinking cold turkey, And we were all better, But two months prior to my brother coming home, We left the only house I have ever been, I was literally losing my shit, I plotted ways to make the sale fall through, I would cry way too much, and I was so mad at my parents, But when I moved I was ok, I still went to my old school, (I made my parents drive me 40 minutes each morning) and I was dreading the end of the year, I was always known as the person with advice and Being absolutely nonjudgmental. Over the summer this year, I am freaking out I have been crying and having severe panic attacks, I called one person once, But she's only person I would ever cry in front off or admit how I really feel, I know I am blowing things out of proportion but my mind acts like its jumping off a never ending skyscraper
I always try my best to be nice, handsome, presentable, normal and I try not to stand out
I hate social situations and I had a fight with my mom because she made me go to a Fourth of July party to meet our new neighbors, I was freaking out on the way there and my brothers were telling me that I need to shut up and calm down
I just freak out when I have to talk to people new and have to change
And some days I'm so happy and feel so thankfull to lie and some days I just want to cry cause I feel idiotic for freaking out and wasting myself,
I have never cut but I have punched myself, slapped, and tore my hair out and just cried at myself,
I don't know if I am normal because i am too ashamed to tell my parents for help because I don't want to cause any problems or cause stress
I have such a great life, My family is so kind and we all are so close now, and I have a nice house and my parents has more money since we moved but. Always feel unright, like I don't even know,
I always take care of my body skin and hair so people will look at me better, and I don't even know why I do it
Please someone help, I feel like i don't know
And I would never take my own life or cut because I just couldn't, but I have thought about it but I never think I would pull through and I wouldn't because god loves me and everyone
Thank you every one, good night guys
:)