input girl/boy needed, long story bare with me please

[breakingbad27]

6th grade in my school was great for me. I was popular, had many chicks flirt with me, felt like one of the superiors, respected more than others. At the end of the day it was great and many people including myself have probably thought of it as the era of sean ( i am using an alias instead of my real name to keep my identity hidden). I wasn't apart of the " it crowd ", i was most of the " it crowd " sometimes in my opinion. At one point i had a good crush on two girls ( i will cal them cathy and amy ). Amy is the one that i knew the longest, we have many things in common and we could always make each other laugh with our raunchy and sarcastic humor, we also are very tuff and we didnt back down. Amy was also one of the most sexiest girls in the school. When she figured out that i was paying a little bit more attention to kathy her jealousy came along and she tried to convince me to not follow my feelings and she also made innuendos to see if i like her. Cathy was a tuff and funny and sexy girl too and both of their traits is what i am into. But the fact that cathy was a little more tuff at times made me pay attention to her and obsess over my crush for her more, which eventually leading to the fact that after i figured out that she was not ready to start a relationship amy moved on. But starting in the begining of 7th grade i was in depression ( still am from time to time ) this was mostly cause my family issues, anxiety/fear, etc. And i guess the era had abruptly ended and that caused more depression.
I have decided that i want to make a new era/empire again by starting to get healthy and get more in shape/ gain more self confidence ( i think of myself as an attractive guy and i just want to bring back the best of my traits again ) and try to rekindle my popular friends and the women that i didnt sucessfully start a relationship with. i just want to be happy again and relaxed, and i want to be closer to god. I wanted to know how can i accomplish all of these things ( i need motivation !!! ) and how can i start a relationship with one of those women one day ? Also what did i do wrong with these girls and what do you think of them from what you have read ? Who do you think is a better fit/ who do you think is more interested in me ?

Tell me everthing you think including these questions. I would be very great full if you give me your input. i am looking forward to seeing a woman and mans point of view.

P.S this " popular " group always had your back and cared what you felt in some way some how

[WeAreOneRepublic]

Ok, nice story,

You want some motivation to get fit? Well, I did post a question about others motivations in the sport and fitness sub-forum which helped a little but what made a real difference was that a few days ago i was swimming with a small boy and him and i got stuck in a rip. The best I could do was keep him afloat and get help. I am meant to be a surflifesaver and that is the best of my abilities? So I am planning to get myself fit for the beginning of the surf life saving season to be the best help I can be.

About the question on who is more interested I would have to say you may be starting from scratch with amy and you may have to wait a bit with cathy. And since you are in yr7 I honestly wouldnt worry too much about getting a gf.

If this group has got your back then you should be able to share whatever you feel and get them back together quite easy.

Just my views :)

[laurakoller0815]

take it easy my friend. dont rush:)

[CMac]

Whoa there. Slow down for a second! You're only in grade 7, so you're what... 12? At your age you should just be having fun, enjoying your friendships and not even worrying about dating. There will be plenty of time for that later. Trust me. I'm a 16 year old girl and when I was your age I made the conscious decision to wait until high school before I even began to think about dating. I don't regret that decision one bit. It allowed me to be able to enjoy elementary school for what it was with none of that annoying boy drama to worry about. It also made my first experiences later better because it was more real (and mature).
I know it's not what you want to hear but that's just my take on things. Gild luck next year though, and if your friends are real they will come back to you :)

[breakingbad27]

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