i wish I could start over from scratch...

[forget]

the last years I have the feeling i've been making all the wrong choices and i find myself more jealous of other people. i've been doing stupid things, saying stupid things I can't take back and I hate myself because of it. other times i'm doing nothing at all, turn down the chance of doing something with my friends because I'm scared of doing or saying stupid things.

I just want to erase the life i'm living and start blank.
I don't have a day in my life that i don't regret.

“Many of us crucify ourselves between two thieves - regret for the past and fear of the future.” • Fulton Oursler •

[Cygnus]

Since I do not know the gravity of what has happened I ask you to excuse me if this doesn't help.

Sometimes it is better to be indifferent towards the bad past, if not you will live in grief, and that is no way to live. Only focus in the present and on moving forward, building a better future step by step. You are better than a person who cries when remembering a single thing.

[plebble]

I just want to start again from when I was 3 years old.
All my life, 4-13 years old, I had behaviour problems which made people not like me. I don't blame them, I was a dick. But I have completely changed now, I couldn't hurt anyone physically or emotionally if I tried, I'm nothing but nice. But my socially awkwardness disables me from letting people notice the newer me. I'm now 17 years old and have no one to hang out with on the summer break.