bman_603
August 11th, 2013, 02:05 AM
Okay so I'm a 17 year old male to start this off. When i was younger, around middle school, I had so many friends from every different "group" or "clique" at my school. Everybody loved being around me and wanted to be my friend. My freshman year in high school was great! I still had a lot of my old friends, and also i met some new interesting people too. The year went by and was great socially but once summer came, I realized that almost none of my friends were talking to me anymore to hangout or even just to talk. It made me feel unwanted and like there was something wrong with me and how I act around people. That summer I was home 90% of the time doing nothing by myself. The only people who I ever really did anything with was my cousin, Vince and Dillon. My cousins are seriously who keep me going the most. I am not a very open person and feel awkward talking about my personal life with most people; but my cousins, I trusted enough and can talk about anything with. Once I started back up school in September, I got to see all of my old friends everyday. It seemed as though everybody kept in touch and had a great summer, except for me. Throughout the year I didn't really talk with many people and just kind of focused on myself and my work. Nobody seemed to notice that I wasn't around much anymore. I still talked to a few friends that I have been friends with since elementary school but that's about it. Throughout the next few years of high school my social life seemed like I was trying to fake who I was just trying to stay more "popular". My life switched from being focused on work and more on my reputation around school and trying to become friends with all of my old friends. Whenever I talked with my old friends they would say that they wanted to hangout and do stuff together but the plans never pulled through because they always "had to do something more important". During these awkward years, I started hanging around with kids, already graduated, who smoke weed and I also started smoking. Now I'm going into my senior year and the friends that I've been hanging out with over the summer will not be in school. I've tried talking to the kids in my grade again but none of them seem interested in actually hanging out with me. I don't know what to do anymore, I just want to be close again with my old friends and stop doing stupid things that are just going to get me in trouble.