When I Figured Out I was Gay and Now.

[kevro]

I remember when I knew I was gay, I was in fifth grade ( I'm going into highschool now ) in the back of the class and me and my friend were talking girls. I always thought that me just being me was normal because all my life I was attracted to guys and that day I knew I was gay because my friends expressed feelings he had for girls like mine but just for guys. I got home that day and cried because I knew I was going to get bullied and maybe never go to prom with a guy because I would be made fun of. I eventually told my self that this was a phase, I knew it wasn't a phase I knew deep down I really was gay. So a year passes, it was the last day of sixth grade so me and my dad saw the movie Super 8. And when I saw Joel Courtney ( Main Actor who was kind of my age ) I had the biggest crush on him, after we saw the movie I looked him up on the internet. I literally had to of seen every interview he had done. And I kind of think its funny because on one of the interviews I left a comment saying " I really like Joel, i'm not gay my dad told me that jealousy is a stage of puberty ". And when I couldn't find anymore interviews I realized that I had a crush on him. And I cried for days knowing I was gay but couldn't accept that I was.( I just noticed this is a really weird pattern ), This pretty much happened for the next two years, when I was in seventh grade I had a huge crush on Lucas Triana ( that's also the year I found this forum ). But my eighth grade year was different, at this point I had already accepted I was gay but I hid it. I got a "girlfriend" if you can call her that, all we did was text and say hi in the halls but we broke up a month later. But my crush for eighth grade was Lohanthony, if anyone on this forum knows him he is a gay YouTuber ( my age ) who is getting famous very quick. But this crush ( I still have ) is different, I dont look at his videos every day, but when i'm sad I just imagine being together with him. My parents have told me that if I was gay they would still love me, I still have not come out to anyone, I plan on telling my sister before she leaves to college. If you have any questions feel free to ask :D

[Laquifa]

Awwwww hopefully everything works out (:

[steellord321]

Hey there. I think we've all had celebrity crushes. It's easier than liking some guy in our life we have to pretend to not like in that way. But still, maybe you should tell someone. I would think in your area some would accept you.

[Hawk1248]

I know how u feel I went through the same thing( not same crushes ) but ya if u wanna talk just post on my file I talk to everyone

[NikosamA98]

Awwww I loved reading this post. I literally searched every character you mentioned haha. I had a crush on Josh Hutcherson in Bridge to Terabithia and now with Logan Lerman for The Perks of Being a Wallflower and I do the exact same thing you did with Joel Courtney.

The worse thing that can happen is to have a crush on a str8 friend...specially if its your best friend and if he is cute and that happened to me and I had a depression YAY! :B

P.D.: Now I'm a Lohanthony subscriber
P.D.D: Xbshzhagzjvxgsbzvzvhs

[teen.jpg]

I have had crushes on a LOT of people, too many to list :lol: Most likely why I don't have many guy friends.

[tristian0714]

omg. I freaaking love lohanthony. he is my favorite youtuber

[justin 13]

WOW dude thank you 4 sharing Im gay too, but not out Im planning to come out in college not before. I just cant. Im gay from ages and I had a big crush on here with a guy..he is in Canada so...well u know. I didnt cry but hurts u know the feeling. I just has 2 real experiences with boys at 12 and about 2 months ago. the first experience just Bj's tho but was awesome.

[wishfulthinker]

I know exactly what you went through im now out of high school and am still in the closet I mean I've rubbed one of my friends buldges when we hugged and got turned on immediately