Troubles being bi

[kingaaron]

Hi. I suppose you have seen millions of these kinds of threads around.
I have a few differences to my situations though.
I am bi, closer to gay in all honesty. I have a boyfriend over the internet (yes I am safe I know about preditors and such).
I am the middle child of a hard core Christian family. I am also, completely and utterly blind. I can't see anything.
So...no secretly visiting councils or support groups.
My dad is the paster of a local (obviously) church which averages 60 attendies on sunday mornings and slightly lower numbers on sunday night and wednesday night.
Some times I feal like everything is going fine with this secret I have from them, sometimes I realize it's the closest thing to hell there ever was or will be.
Truth is, I always get my heart and mind destroyed by one of dad's cermons.
"If Home Depo was on fire, I wouldn't do so much as spit in the parking lot to help extinguish it." He of corse says this, as he says earlier in the message, because of home depo's pro-gay stance.
I'm not here to get anybody to feal sorry for me, as I'm not even sorry for me. Advice is unlikely available for such a circumstance either, that's not what I'm here for.
I'm here to show you that we "unnatural" people still suffer in modern society. I've never been hurt for my sexuality because of my skill of silence, but emotional pain can be worse than physical pain in some instances.
I am interested in feedback of this sich though.
Hope to see you around some more on this forum, I just signed up. :)

[steellord321]

Hey, i know exactly what you mean. It takes a toll keeping this to ourselves while enduring hate messages. I didn't even know Home Depot was 'pro gay.' To me that's really going out of his way to find reasons to gay bash. I quit going to church cause of this, but that's obviously difficult for you. I'm glad you have a guy though so you find something positive in being gay/bi.

[Zelder]

Wow you are amazing if you can live like that!!!

[Trace]

"Wouldn't so much as spit on it.." I cringed reading that. Absolutely pathetic.

[laurakoller0815]

in my case i like both genders. some ppl cant deal with it. who the f.... cares. its my life and I decide what im doing and living. On the other side in my company nobody knows that. yeah there are some haters.

[kirikiri94]

This world must change and we are all responsible for that. I feel ashamed to belong to a society where all human beins are not brothers and treated as such, regardless of their gender and their sexual preferences. Fight the good fight mate

[laurakoller0815]

well many socities stuck on there opinions.

[teen.jpg]

I haven't experienced anything quite like that.

People say idiotic things about what they don't know, and it pisses me off sometimes. It shouldn't be a hard thing to understand anyway.

[NikosamA98]

Hi Aaron :B. I'm Aaron and I can tell I've been in the same situation. My mom began studying the bible with the Jehovah's Whiteness and she made me go to their reunions. I remember how the speech guy said things like "Being gay is unholy" "There's a place on hell to everyone who leaves Jehovah's path" "It is Adam and Eve not Adam and Evo" and I didn't knew I was gay but I knew I liked boys. It scared me so much.

I hope people realize how stupid and excluding this attitude is. Greetings from Venezuela! :P

[ElliEvens]

My dad isn't a pastor but my family is fairly religious and I go to a private catholic school so I get what you are saying. I'm bi also in that I am attracted to and have done stuff with both boys and girls. Who knows what life will bring. I'm only almost 15 so I don't hold myself to knowing if I'm gonna get married and have kids and all that. I just go with the fact that I'm attracted to who I'm attracted to and if I have a healthy relationship it isn't really anyone else's business.

[kingaaron]

Thanks guys, perhaps if you were to look through the posts on this thread so far you wouldn't think it is much help. It is. Reading these opinions or whatever you'd like to call it coming directly from real people (not edited for printing in some comercial work) is actually encouraging. It's come to the point to where I can't stand Sundays and Wednesdays, and not just because I am agnostic or perhaps athyist, it is because of all the hate they call "love". Seeing the opposite viewpoint is certainly a pleasure beyond comprehension unless you are in similar situations. Doesn't help that I'm homeschooled either. Never around likeminded people except through the internet. Hmm, I bet that's not healthy...lol.