Despot
August 8th, 2013, 03:44 PM
Hi, im 17yo male came for some advices because i can't do it by myself. So here we go, i will tell you my life story and to see how it goes:
I was born in one village with happy family and people around. It was not that big village so i knew all kids there and every day i going to friends or they coming to me, and it was really great.. never felt lonely which was great feeling and i was full of life. Then suddenly at age 4 to 6 i dont really remember.. happend one accident to me.. i was small and didnt pay attention that dog house was near and i were going to pick up my toy.. and suddenly i got bitten by a dog to a back of the neck.. not lying. and then i fighted my way out by punching dog in stomach and i went to surgery.. Then after that i had another accident but in this one i did cut my right leg to a big nail.. so paintful! Lets finish with accidents.
Like i was saying, i was going to friends constantly.. was rly good person and happy so as my friends.. but then my parents started to argue and all that stuff which you probably know.. They were not giving me to go outside because we were gather in house and speaking about problems.. my mom,dad,brother and i. Then after some time i really wanted to have Computer and mom said if you have good grades i will buy you, and yes i had good grades and i was rly good student back then. Then i was more going to play Computer because i couldnt go outside with friends and when i was playing games i could hear them yelling at each other :(. Then suddenly they want divorce... and then we gathered up and mom and dad usked us 2 with who we want to live, and my brother said with mother so as i.. because i didnt want to grow without my brother.
It was tough time going to live in a big city in which we didnt know anyone. Then my mother told me that i dont be shy and to go to school, i accepted but it was hard for me.. from when they started arguing my personality crashed.. when they devorced it was worst for me. So i started to be sad person and i didnt do well at school as i did in village.. i was kinda bullied because i had different accent.. and for other stuff also. Every 2 months we were changing apartments, and its just hard to get used to.. Everyone was going with bus in school only i was going every day 2km to school and back all by myself even in dark.. and i didnt even complain because i know in what situation i was.. First 4 months in the city mom,brother and me were sleeping in same little bed and it was hot! and small apartment. But we still handle it.
Whenever my dad called me on phone my mom was saying "why you talking to him! tell him to do this.. and that and that etc..." So my personality is starting to crash at that time.. Didnt have any good friends at school which made fun of me + arguing at home. I was so bad at school that i stopped going to classes and to make exuses i was sick, because i knew every day when im going on way to school i will be bullied and not very accepted by teachers. From my 5th grade when i came in city i just became lonely person and having no friends at all :(.
Now my mom went to germany to work because its hard here to get money by her self.. and me and my older brother live alone.. for 3 years now. I get reject from alot ppl, but i dont know why? am i ugly or what? Im person that likes to make other happy because i had shitty life and thats why i want others happy..Im doing best to my friends, but it seems no one want to be with me.. why? Whenever i see someone of my friends on any social websites i always ask them something first and start conversation.. no one ever started to talk to me first... I want my life to get better now, and to get girlfriend but i just cant.. im to afraid to go outside and to meet people because how much rejected i was in past.. :(
If anyone got advice how can i make my life better from now on, i would rly like to talk with someone. Ive been told alot that im ugly and i cant judge so maybe you can tell me? I took picture of me http://www.dodaj.rs/f/K/ys/11426xlU/despot.jpg
Any advice is grateful, have a nice day everyone :).
I was born in one village with happy family and people around. It was not that big village so i knew all kids there and every day i going to friends or they coming to me, and it was really great.. never felt lonely which was great feeling and i was full of life. Then suddenly at age 4 to 6 i dont really remember.. happend one accident to me.. i was small and didnt pay attention that dog house was near and i were going to pick up my toy.. and suddenly i got bitten by a dog to a back of the neck.. not lying. and then i fighted my way out by punching dog in stomach and i went to surgery.. Then after that i had another accident but in this one i did cut my right leg to a big nail.. so paintful! Lets finish with accidents.
Like i was saying, i was going to friends constantly.. was rly good person and happy so as my friends.. but then my parents started to argue and all that stuff which you probably know.. They were not giving me to go outside because we were gather in house and speaking about problems.. my mom,dad,brother and i. Then after some time i really wanted to have Computer and mom said if you have good grades i will buy you, and yes i had good grades and i was rly good student back then. Then i was more going to play Computer because i couldnt go outside with friends and when i was playing games i could hear them yelling at each other :(. Then suddenly they want divorce... and then we gathered up and mom and dad usked us 2 with who we want to live, and my brother said with mother so as i.. because i didnt want to grow without my brother.
It was tough time going to live in a big city in which we didnt know anyone. Then my mother told me that i dont be shy and to go to school, i accepted but it was hard for me.. from when they started arguing my personality crashed.. when they devorced it was worst for me. So i started to be sad person and i didnt do well at school as i did in village.. i was kinda bullied because i had different accent.. and for other stuff also. Every 2 months we were changing apartments, and its just hard to get used to.. Everyone was going with bus in school only i was going every day 2km to school and back all by myself even in dark.. and i didnt even complain because i know in what situation i was.. First 4 months in the city mom,brother and me were sleeping in same little bed and it was hot! and small apartment. But we still handle it.
Whenever my dad called me on phone my mom was saying "why you talking to him! tell him to do this.. and that and that etc..." So my personality is starting to crash at that time.. Didnt have any good friends at school which made fun of me + arguing at home. I was so bad at school that i stopped going to classes and to make exuses i was sick, because i knew every day when im going on way to school i will be bullied and not very accepted by teachers. From my 5th grade when i came in city i just became lonely person and having no friends at all :(.
Now my mom went to germany to work because its hard here to get money by her self.. and me and my older brother live alone.. for 3 years now. I get reject from alot ppl, but i dont know why? am i ugly or what? Im person that likes to make other happy because i had shitty life and thats why i want others happy..Im doing best to my friends, but it seems no one want to be with me.. why? Whenever i see someone of my friends on any social websites i always ask them something first and start conversation.. no one ever started to talk to me first... I want my life to get better now, and to get girlfriend but i just cant.. im to afraid to go outside and to meet people because how much rejected i was in past.. :(
If anyone got advice how can i make my life better from now on, i would rly like to talk with someone. Ive been told alot that im ugly and i cant judge so maybe you can tell me? I took picture of me http://www.dodaj.rs/f/K/ys/11426xlU/despot.jpg
Any advice is grateful, have a nice day everyone :).