I'm not sure why

[Rdsxbaseballfan]

It's not really depression but i don't know how to classify it.
A little story: My family went on vacation as we do every year in July. Everything was going great until the final day of vacation, which happened to be my cousins birthday. He was acting not like himself, all he wanted to do was sit on the couch and be lazy which he is usually hyper and very active (we thought he just wanted to relax). They went back home(another state) and life went on. On Tuesday (8/6/13) my dad asked me what acne medication i used, i figured it was because the doctor was asking. Yesterday (8/7/13) I went to the doctors but on the way he told me that my cousins friend had committed suicide while we were on vacation (my cousin found out on the day of his birthday). But ever since my dad told me i have felt very sad (yeah its only been a day), all I can think of right now is my cousin and his friend. I have no clue how close they were or who the person was but I'm feeling like it was someone I knew that had committed suicide.

A little extra: No one ever knew about what happened because he never told anyone until they got home I guess or his parents found out from other people. The reason about the acne medication is because they believe the cause of it is the effects of accutane

I just really don't know why I'm always thinking about it. Does anyone have a clue to why this is all I can think about?

[Magenta]

First off, as someone with diagnosed clinical depression who has taken Accutane twice, it's not really proven that depression and the medication are entirely linked. If there is a connection, it's said to be fairly uncommon but doctors are required to warn you anyway for insurance purposes. I was depressed long before I ever started taking the Accutane and it's been no worse over the two courses of it I've taken. But if that was the cause for the suicide of your cousin's friend, that's incredibly unfortunate. :/

It's normal to feel sad when someone has died, even if you didn't know them personally. You saw there was a change in your cousin and it was probably unsettling. And maybe you're worried about the Accutane if that's what you're taking yourself. It's just sympathy, maybe even empathy, because you have a way to relate to your cousin's friend. It's hard to deal with loss, even secondhand.

Now, you didn't say if you were on it or not but in case you are, if you're worried about the Accutane, speak to a doctor. However, normal feelings of sadness and depression are very different and you'd know if the Accutane was causing something abnormal with your mood.

But all of this is a completely normal response to learning about someone's death. Sometimes we don't know how to handle it especially when it's someone we didn't know personally or didn't know well. Because we're not sure how sad we should feel. I'm sorry to hear about your cousin's friend. :hug:

[1_21Guns]

Acne medication often comes with a warning of possible depression, really they're just covering themselves because most of them are hormone filled pills which will naturally screw some people over
It's perfectly understandable for you to feel affected by it, you saw how much it hurt your cousin and there's always that strange feeling when you hear someone has died, someone I knew but was never particularity friends or really anything with died a few weeks ago, it certainly hits pretty hard and for the following days I felt very odd, couldn't get it out of my mind so I know what you mean :hug3: