Help me.

[Fanta_Lover44]

These past few months have been chaos, if you have read my previous posts in this section you know who I am, well basically here's my story. My parents got divorced when I was 3. My Dad to me has sat back all these years and never really bothered about us. I'm a underachiever at school who struggles mainly at Maths and English.... Not to mention im in bottom set with all the kids who have a few learning difficulties and it gets me down being there. I don't like my sexuality, I struggle socializing, I need glasses but don't want them. My life has recently got worse when my parents found I use to cut, we had a talk and they think im fine but recently we got into a arugment and I walked out, the argument was they got me swimming at a late age and I learnt how to ride my bike on my own. They always use the esxuse they had no money and also its not easy to teach someone to swim. They got all my brothers swimming as young as possible. I feel like my life has no where to go now, i just want out again..... I'm not going to get anywhere in my life and my grades prove that.......... I want out of this and for people to forget i ever existed. Im just a waste of space and friends ignore me, i can't get new friends and i only have two people i could class as friends. I can't even catch a ball let alone throwing it. I just want out.

I just feel like crying myself to sleep, im happyier in my dreams then what i'll ever be in my real life.

[Sir Suomi]

Kyle, I know it's rough. But you've got to stick it through. Embrace yourself, give yourself a chance at life. Use this feeling of uselessness as a motivator to change yourself, and your life, into a positive ending. With your parents, it sounds like they tried, but not hard enough. But you shouldn't let it drag you down. Learning to ride your bike, all by yourself? I mean, that's tough enough to do with someone to coach you along. You should feel proud of yourself. With your grades, don't feel bad. Some people just require more time and effort to succeed than others. Just keep trying, find a teacher or someone you know to help tutor you. It just takes a little time. You are not a waste of space. You are here for a reason, are you not? Find a passion, a dream, or a goal, that you can look up to, something that will make a difference in the world. For example, I've been battling depression for about 2 years now, and I've found out that the one thing that makes me happy, is seeing others smile. So I've decided to help out everyone I can, no matter the cost to myself. And finally, it's up to you to make your dreams into a reality. Let them guide you through life, and hopefully you'll find the glimmer of hope that we all need in life.

Hope that helped. Message me if you still feel like talking.

[Fanta_Lover44]

I set my goals each time I fell to get me out of this whole, but then after a while they just fade, weather its dreams/goals/passions, they all just go. I lose everything and I don't know why. I held on to my biggest dream I ever had, and now its gone. The only hope and faith I've got is what god's given me. Sometimes it's not enough.

[1_21Guns]

Grades aren't everything, some people are good with their heads, some people are good with their hands, that's the way I see it. Society and schools have a way of telling you if you're not the best at academic subjects then you're stupid, but you're not, you're probably 100x more creative than the people who are really good at academic subjects.
Your sexuality is who you are, it's better to embrace that than try and push it away because whatever sexuality you are, that's okay.
I hate my glasses too :p I hardly wear them but there's nothing wrong with glasses, if you need them you need them and I couldn't throw or catch at all at your age, and now I'm not too bad at it, you get better with practice :)
And see, you taught yourself how to ride a bike, that might seem like a small thing for some, but it's hard enough with someone helping you, nevermind on your own, you have a lot of determination in you and you should hold onto that and use it to your advantage
Make small goals or targets for yourself, even if it's getting up in the morning, or making your bed, or making some food, exercise, or drawing pictures, find something you're good at, because you'll be good at something
you are not a waste of space, and you are not your failures, stay strong, keep fighting :)

[TheTatsBros]

Look, i'm going to level with you here. You've have a shitty couple of months. Anyone can see that. And i really do feel for you. But you HAVE to stop being at effect to everything that is happening around you.

You can't let a few months determine the rest of your life. Sometimes you just have to grab onto your life with both hands and shake the hell out of it. You have to say "NO, im not putting up with this anymore!" and do something about it. Everyone, at some point, will go through a terrible time. Whether they get ill, a relationship ends, not doing well in school or in a job, someone in their family dies. Everyone will go through something like this at some point.

It is simple. If you aren't happy with your life and the way it is heading then you have to do something about it. If your grades aren't grade then DO SOMETHING, get a tutor, ask a friend or teacher for help. Work twice as hard in class. Don't put yourself down before you've even tried. I guarantee you that you can turn your life around. I know because i've done it myself.

I used to be in the lowest set for maths and science. I hated it, i hated the feeling that i wasn't going anywhere and that i was failing at everything i was doing. Instead of accepting that i said, no, F*** THIS. This is not me, this is not who i want to be and this is NOT who i will become. So i made a choice. I decided to work damn hard to do well in school. I managed to get 9 A*'s and one A at GCSE. I went on to get an A* and two A's at A level.

Am i more clever than you? Am i more intelligent than you? NO. Did i dedicate myself to improving my life and stop settling for things that just are? YES. I CHOSE to change my life, and that is the difference. No matter what is happening in your life right now you have to realize that you are in control. You have the power to get yourself out of it if you really want it.

Find a passion, find something you're good at or love doing. Give yourself a goal or target and DON'T STOP until you get there. I am telling you. YOU CAN DO THIS. We've both turned our lives around and you can too! Have a look at our website for more information. It is a site dedicated to anyone with low confidence, low self esteem, bad with girls, feel crap about how they look. We've both been there and we know what it is like. We've also managed to turn our lives around and we want to share how we did it with as many people as possible so please check it out and if you need more help then get in touch with us!