Not cutting is making my life worse

[Kyle9000]

I havent cut myself for about 6 weeks but its made life seem less bearable and im having alot more suicidal thoughts than when i cut. Being bullied is making me mad quicker and i want to cut so badly. Is this normal to have suicidal thoughts much more often if you're trying to stop self harming?

[Harley Quinn]

Considering that the coping method was self harm, it's possible that because you aren't reliant on it anymore/are trying to stop, you're becoming increasingly aware that you're suicidal. It was there before, but only just becoming apparent.

[numbness]

I don't know if generally people get more suicidal when they don't cut, however I find that if i try really hard not to cut for a while then I get really stressed out and find myself getting angry much more quickly than I would have before

[Moondust]

Yes, it is normal. Funny, all the things that will benefit a person in the future are always the hardest to do. Stay strong, remember who you are and don't give in.