Why me?

[Mushin]

What did I do to deserve this? I have no one. I am sick and tired of being excluded by all of my "friends", sick and tired of being walked on and hurt by everyone that I would do anything to help and protect. Everyone has turned their backs on me. Everyone I worked so hard to help through any situation, at any time. I was always the one there to help all of them, any of them. When they wanted to talk shit about one another who did they come to? Me. They came to me and I would not dare say anything to any of them about what they have said about each other.

I really fucking do not understand, at all. I am lost. I don't want to sleep or do anything or go out or see any of them or make new friends- anything. I don't want to anymore. I don't want this anymore, whatever this is. I can't help but feel like I don't deserve this; I'm a good person. I tried my best to be the best friend that I could be to anyone who I have come in contact with. No one, not one single person in my entire life has ever returned the favor. It has all been some kind of joke. Every relationship or friendship I have ever been in. No one has ever stuck around to return the favors when I need help, or when I'm feeling lost and alone and betrayed and hurt and excluded and helpless and ashamed and let down.

Why am I the one who has been excluded? After all of the hurt they have given me, the amount of times they have stabbed me in the back repeatedly and the amount of times I, have been so utterly stupid, to forgive and forget. Why me? Why, out of all of the nice things I have done, do I deserve to be the abandoned?

sorry.

[Browny]

Life is tough like that maybe your just hanging out with the wrong crowds. I have very few friends who I can really trust but people know me because I help them out a lot and I don't expect anything back.

Well at least you can attempt to make some friends here if it doesn't work out.

[AlexanderTheGreat]

What did I do to deserve this? I have no one. I am sick and tired of being excluded by all of my "friends", sick and tired of being walked on and hurt by everyone that I would do anything to help and protect. Everyone has turned their backs on me. Everyone I worked so hard to help through any situation, at any time. I was always the one there to help all of them, any of them. When they wanted to talk shit about one another who did they come to? Me. They came to me and I would not dare say anything to any of them about what they have said about each other.

I really fucking do not understand, at all. I am lost. I don't want to sleep or do anything or go out or see any of them or make new friends- anything. I don't want to anymore. I don't want this anymore, whatever this is. I can't help but feel like I don't deserve this; I'm a good person. I tried my best to be the best friend that I could be to anyone who I have come in contact with. No one, not one single person in my entire life has ever returned the favor. It has all been some kind of joke. Every relationship or friendship I have ever been in. No one has ever stuck around to return the favors when I need help, or when I'm feeling lost and alone and betrayed and hurt and excluded and helpless and ashamed and let down.

Why am I the one who has been excluded? After all of the hurt they have given me, the amount of times they have stabbed me in the back repeatedly and the amount of times I, have been so utterly stupid, to forgive and forget. Why me? Why, out of all of the nice things I have done, do I deserve to be the abandoned?

sorry.

I'm really sorry to hear you feel so sad.
Just hang in there. Every cloud has a silver lining.
I know from experience. For a year, I felt shit but then I met new people, amazing people, and I hope you do as well. I hope it all turns out good for you!

[Luminous]

I think you just wrote a novel of my life.
I found what got me better, to realize YOU DON'T FUCKING NEED FRIENDS, was devoting my life to a career. For me it is acting. For you it can be anything, writing, playing a sport, heck, working at McDonalds.

[answers-101]

What did I do to deserve this? I have no one. I am sick and tired of being excluded by all of my "friends", sick and tired of being walked on and hurt by everyone that I would do anything to help and protect. Everyone has turned their backs on me. Everyone I worked so hard to help through any situation, at any time. I was always the one there to help all of them, any of them. When they wanted to talk shit about one another who did they come to? Me. They came to me and I would not dare say anything to any of them about what they have said about each other.

I really fucking do not understand, at all. I am lost. I don't want to sleep or do anything or go out or see any of them or make new friends- anything. I don't want to anymore. I don't want this anymore, whatever this is. I can't help but feel like I don't deserve this; I'm a good person. I tried my best to be the best friend that I could be to anyone who I have come in contact with. No one, not one single person in my entire life has ever returned the favor. It has all been some kind of joke. Every relationship or friendship I have ever been in. No one has ever stuck around to return the favors when I need help, or when I'm feeling lost and alone and betrayed and hurt and excluded and helpless and ashamed and let down.

Why am I the one who has been excluded? After all of the hurt they have given me, the amount of times they have stabbed me in the back repeatedly and the amount of times I, have been so utterly stupid, to forgive and forget. Why me? Why, out of all of the nice things I have done, do I deserve to be the abandoned?

sorry.

Nobody with a heart of gold deserves to be abandoned. Never let anyone make you feel worthless. If friends do that to you, then they don't deserve the social status "friend" in the slightest. Take it from me, the moment you stop supporting them they will show their true colours to each other. I used to be the go-to guy with my old group of friends. The person who each and every one of the guys in our circle used to go to to bitch about each other. Then the all (conveniently) fell out with me simultaneously - and turned the rest of the people i knew against me. All i needed to do was reiterate the ammunition they'd already given to me and the tables were turned.

As a summary: if they've stopped supporting you, then don't continue to support them. What's the point? And if they turn against you, use what they've told you to work against them. Dont ever let people walk all over you - it's the biggest mistake you can make xx

[Obsidian]

This is exactly how I used to feel. Sometimes I still do. But over time I started to realize that I wanted friends so badly that I wasn't being very selective about the people that I would associate with. I would stay friends with people I didn't even really like that much because I was terrified of the idea of being alone and having no one. But after awhile I got so sick of the people I was surrounding myself with, and of the way they were treating me. I decided I wasn't going to stick by people who weren't good friends to me, and that I'd rather have no friends than ones that made me feel badly about myself or stressed me out. After I made that decision I met someone really awesome that I became best friends with, and even though she's my only friend at the moment it's enough because she's such a great one.

People can't treat you badly if you don't let them. Don't allow yourself to be treated so negatively by people. You can be happy without having friends, and if your friends are crappy ones then chances are having them out of your life will make you even happier. Be careful about who you choose to be friends with and who you invest your time in. You're not always going to become friends with the right people, but if you stay friends with people that treat you negatively then you're less likely to meet a friend who treats you right. I think you should let these people know that you're done with them, and work on being happy even if you don't have any friends right now. It's totally possible, I promise. And I bet once you get all of the negative people out of your life and learn how to still be happy on your own then you'll meet some really great friends who actually deserve to be in your life.