My earliest memory, it disturbs and confused me.

[Silicate Wielder]

Hey guys, i've been watching alot of Vsauce videos tonight and stumbled apon the "Is anything real?" one. and it got me thinking about my earliest memory, one that I cannot make sense of and don't dare think about too much for the fear of ending up in a mental institution.

Now please do take this seriously even though it probably sounds fake

This memory is decently vivid for the first few seconds and then it get's really fuzzy, but i'm only concerned with the part that is decently vivid. It starts off with a blue background with some sort of like old fancy font and then suddenly it switches to the real world where it gets a bit fuzzy, and i'm sitting with my dad watching TV and he gets up to go make toast, in the meantime i turn around in the chair and then it just leaves me.

I'm really concerned about this and want to know if this is something that makes me crazy or what. I feel like the vivid part of this memory is something that is real but shouldn't be there.

[neffam3]

Hmmmmmmmm... I dont think you are crazy and i dont think that is fake.

[conniption]

Ahh Vsauce, their videos always make me think deeply, too deeply, about things. Is it possible that the blue background and font are just part of a show or video you watched that just kinda stuck with you?

[CharlieHorse]

Perhaps your earliest memory is a dream?

[teen.jpg]

I love VSauce! But sometimes I can't wqtch the full video because too many facts creeps me out. I dunno why, I like facts, but not too much.

No, you're not weird. It's just a thought.

[bubble .]

Oh my God, I know how you feel. That.. affected me deeply, couldn't sleep for weeks. I don't think your crazy, nor faking it. I'm a psychologist in training and that, is quite unusual. Have you actually told anyone about that?

[1_21Guns]

I think it's quite possible, my early memory is something of a haze but some things are crystal clear, perhaps the blue background was what was on television, but then your attention was diverted to your dad and that's just how you remember it? Our young memories are often quite unusual because children have such strong imaginations and such things (not to say you imagined this, but the rest of the things we do make up can often cause the line between fake and real to become a little hazy, I don't think it makes you crazy at all

[Mariebme]

Your mind can do amazing things when it tries to build a memory that isn't complete...I forget the term but it's a real thing, how your brain will just stick stuff in the middle to make something work. I wouldn't worry about it at all :)

[david2705]

interesting. I have read a lot of siegmund freud latley. so if this is real, there is a good reason you remember this. think about it and just maybe you will find an answer. it's a classical extencialist's thought. you should read a bit of rousseau. he's got some interesting books on this field.

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[CharlieHorse]

Maybe you're dad's laptop blue-screen crashed and he was showing it to you.

[ksdnfkfr]

Early memories aren't very reliable. I have an a very vivid early memory of being chased by a sheep dog that knocked me down and bit my leg, but my parents insist that never happened. If you had some kind of mental illness related to that memory, you'd have a lot more crazy stuff in your head then that one thing. One very normal kid I know says he has a vivid memory of watching the moon explode when he was really little.