Ptsd

[Yugen]

My doctor put me in therapy because he was trying to stop me from developing PTSD. But I think it's too late.

My foster sister started hanging out with these people who used to bully me. Since then, I've been having more frequent panic attacks, terrible flashbacks, and the worst nightmares I've ever had. A lot of my life feels like it's being consumed by the memories of what happened to me. I was pretty scared to go out alone before, but now I'm absolutely terrified to leave, even with someone. I stopped using all of my social networks. I just have this overwhelming fear that they're going to get me again. The nightmares are the worst though. They're usually either reliving what happened, or what WILL happen if I go back to school. And it's scary. I'm just scared and angry and I don't know anymore.

I'm not one to self diagnose, but I think if I saw my doctor again, he'd agree it's probably PTSD. I'm scared to tell my therapist that what she's supposed to be working to prevent is really tearing me apart. I'm two sessions in, out of six, and I'm afraid of what she'd say. But this is really affecting my life.

[uglyinsideandout]

I would tell your therapist, they can't help you if they don't know. But that's just what I think.

[1_21Guns]

She knows you're at risk of developing it, so feeling like you already have shouldn't come as a shock to her, it's best to tell her so you can get the proper help you need or you'll really decline, do what's best for yourself, tell her how you feel :hug3:

[blue666]

I was diagnosed with PTSD last year. I've been exposed to substance abuse since a young child and I've witnessed a lot of physical fighting and a traumatic fire. I have a lot of the same symptoms you do. The flashbacks mainly. My doctor put me on Prozac and told me to go to therapy, like you're doing now. I think it helps a bit, but your memories are always gonna be there. I always feel best when I have some outlet for my grief, like music. Have you thought of transferring schools and getting a fresh start? Regardless, you should tell your therapist. The medicine at least does help. I don't have nightmares anymore.