help some one im about to lose it

[zacharooo]

:well latly i have had lots of fucking problems with my mom and school. i mena i love my mom we get along fine but she just told my sster about whats happeing wiht me and i dont want my mom telling the whole entire universe about me i mean sometimes im so sad that i will take a knife to me and once i shot myself wiht an automatic M4 bebe gun with steel pellets. my mom wont stop yelling at me and its really pissing me off and i just cant take it no more

in other words here is a piece of poetry i wrote in my time of needs

sometimes i hurt
sometimes i cry
sometimes i feel left out
and sometimes every i feel i dont have a family.

every one talks about me
everyone thinks im a brat
everyine thinks im dumb
every one thinks im a mistake
not a lot of people like me.

i cant take living like this
i let my self down.
i crushed my hope and dreams.
i feel like dying
i feel horrible about my family.
i feel my family hates me
i am a accident to my family, hell my dad dont even care about me.

my depression is builing up in side
my heart slowly beats
my life is going down the wrong end
my time is coming
my only true family is my 3 cousins and my sis who really under stands

no one really talks to me
no one knows im here
no one seems to notice me

my family avoids me
my life is crumbling
my friends dont seem to talk to me

im hurt
im sad
im depressed
im lonely
im no one

the only true friends i have is krystel and ivy,,, no one else seems to care about me.

help.
:(

if you took the time to read this you will see im hurt
if you took the time to read this, you thought other wise
if you took the time to read this you realize my pain

i have no role model
i have no sympathy for no one any more
i am not TAKING NO MORE SHIT FROM ANY BODY
now this ends you fuck with me you WILL regret it.

im sorry i am any trouble to my family im a hurt lonely soul


written by me

i take my feeeling out by poerty
im sorry every one for being in youtr way

[thesphinx]

Seems like you have some issues going on here, have you ever thought about talking to a counselor about it?
it can help A LOT!
Also just tell your mom you don't want anyone else knowing about whats going on she should respect your privacy.
why does your mom yell at you?
We're here for you man and I think you should talk to someone.

[zacharooo]

i dont know why butits crazy here

[byee]

Oh, i'm so sorry for you, Zach! You always have all of us, too.

If there are specific things your mom can do to help, I'd suggest you calmly make a list of them, and wait until you're calm, and ask her if you guys can find some time to talk. Sorta make an appointment with her, let her know you need to talk with her about something important.

Then, calmly discuss with her the things that she's doing that are bothersome to you. Be calm here, Zach, and be very specific. Give her things she can understand, speak 'adult speak', the language of adults, so she can really 'get it'. Don't be angry or speak in 3 word sentences.

In the brief time that you've been here, Zach, you've impressed at least me with being a really nice, really reasonable kid. That had to come from someplace (or someone), and if you're like most people, it's your family that has the biggest impact on who you've become. So, i have to assume that given the right message, spoken very clearly and calmly, that she'll likely listen to it.