Jessiibear
July 22nd, 2013, 03:52 PM
About a year ago, I got myself addicted to pot. I didn't think you could get addicted to that stuff but it ran through my head everyday and I couldn't eat or sleep without it lingering in some corner of my mind. But after my mum found out, she told me I should stop. She said it's not good and all that (even though I disagree with her--even after considering the facts and everything).
Since my supply got cut off, I thought Okay, let's try to stop...but, I couldn't. I craved the taste and the feeling of smoking. So, I stared to steal my dad's cigarettes. He has been smoking all my life but I've always told myself I'd never do it. Thought it was so gross. But after trying one out, I realized how much they reminded me of pot. I was hooked. Then I got too hooked...
I started to forget weed and focus more on the "joys" of smoking cigarettes. I was addicted. I kept stealing them and smoking them alone when mum was working and my sister was at school. But then my mum found out and she made me quit. She took my cigarettes and didn't allow me to go to my dad's place alone ('cause she knew I'd just get them from there). I was angry and always crying and feeling crappy. I missed my smokes. :( But with time, I learned to live without them. It was hard, but I managed. A few guys that I'd hang out with, though, would smoke and I'd try some and that, but I never got as bad as before.
Now, though, I find myself craving them again. But I have breathing problems! I can't smoke them. They're gross. But my mind is telling me to just have one drag...What harm would it do? it taunts. I just took 4 cigarettes from my dad's stash and plan to smoke them tomorrow when I go home and my mum is at work. What am I doing?! It was a total impulse when I grabbed those cigs. I really don't want to smoke again. And my mum might find out and she'll get super pissed. I just can't handle it. But I've been feeling depressed and lonely lately. I feel like these can fix them.
I guess I'm just looking for help. What do I do to quit and get them off my mind? I don't want to smoke them tomorrow. :( This is like an out-of-body situation. :(
Since my supply got cut off, I thought Okay, let's try to stop...but, I couldn't. I craved the taste and the feeling of smoking. So, I stared to steal my dad's cigarettes. He has been smoking all my life but I've always told myself I'd never do it. Thought it was so gross. But after trying one out, I realized how much they reminded me of pot. I was hooked. Then I got too hooked...
I started to forget weed and focus more on the "joys" of smoking cigarettes. I was addicted. I kept stealing them and smoking them alone when mum was working and my sister was at school. But then my mum found out and she made me quit. She took my cigarettes and didn't allow me to go to my dad's place alone ('cause she knew I'd just get them from there). I was angry and always crying and feeling crappy. I missed my smokes. :( But with time, I learned to live without them. It was hard, but I managed. A few guys that I'd hang out with, though, would smoke and I'd try some and that, but I never got as bad as before.
Now, though, I find myself craving them again. But I have breathing problems! I can't smoke them. They're gross. But my mind is telling me to just have one drag...What harm would it do? it taunts. I just took 4 cigarettes from my dad's stash and plan to smoke them tomorrow when I go home and my mum is at work. What am I doing?! It was a total impulse when I grabbed those cigs. I really don't want to smoke again. And my mum might find out and she'll get super pissed. I just can't handle it. But I've been feeling depressed and lonely lately. I feel like these can fix them.
I guess I'm just looking for help. What do I do to quit and get them off my mind? I don't want to smoke them tomorrow. :( This is like an out-of-body situation. :(