Im new but need to share things

[thewhiteyeezus]

I feel like all my antidepressants taken over the past year have just blocked out feeling like crap about everything wrong or that has been wrong in my life. To be honest i used to a complete and useless piece of shit wearing the same hoodie, different sweatpants and glasses every day doing nothing with my life. Now today is a new day, but im still so quiet all the time because of my damn social anxiety yet people still talk to me and i respond yet cant really start a conversation. Because of this some people probably regard me as a rude asshole,( all girls maybe guys ) because they think im dissing them when im actually shy. Also ive done lacrosse for 3 years now and deciding between xc or track, i literally suck at everything else. Even so i still have troubles on the field and cant run over 1.65 miles on the treadmill and at home. But if its a 5k i have the willpower magically. One more thing, im constantly trying to wet my mini bangs down all the times with my buzzed haircut if you know what i mean and am skinny as hell so some of my larger clothes float around me like a ghost which bothers me extremely. Believe it or not this a fraction of whats causing my depression so if you want more details and explanations just pm me ( i have a counselor btw ) To sum it up these phases of depression and suicidal thoughts happen every so often reminding me how much im not comfortable with myself or life

[Jessiibear]

First off, stop doubting yourself and stop putting yourself down. You don't need it. You're a wonderful guy and you need to see that. :)

We float in the same boat, you and I. I've been taking anti-depressants for over a year and am still very shy and anxious. Still get panic attacks, too! You ever get those? Oh, they're the worst. When I was in school, I felt like an outcast and like people thought I was a snob who thought she was better than everyone else. But I was just shy as hell! So yeah, I get it. Maybe those pills aren't for you. Have you ever considered changing your prescription? See what other options you have in that respect?

And hey, at least you're good at something. Don't worry about the things you're not so good at and just embrace the positive! Buy new clothes if the ones you have don't fit. Having money troubles? That's why there are salvation armies and things like that. :)

Options, options, options! There are so many. Talk to your counselor about how you're feeling in depth (that's what they're there for) and discuss options. I bet you're a great person, Colin. You just got to believe it. Also, you're at that time in your life where things are just so confusing, so troubling, and maybe you feel like no one gets you and you wish you were different. I understand you have depression for different reasons, but this could just be a major phase. I don't want to downgrade this or anything, don't get me wrong. It's just that I've been where you are at your age. I never expected to make it this far.

Chin up! I'm here if you ever need to talk or feel like venting some more about anything. <3

[thewhiteyeezus]

First off, stop doubting yourself and stop putting yourself down. You don't need it. You're a wonderful guy and you need to see that. :)

We float in the same boat, you and I. I've been taking anti-depressants for over a year and am still very shy and anxious. Still get panic attacks, too! You ever get those? Oh, they're the worst. When I was in school, I felt like an outcast and like people thought I was a snob who thought she was better than everyone else. But I was just shy as hell! So yeah, I get it. Maybe those pills aren't for you. Have you ever considered changing your prescription? See what other options you have in that respect?

And hey, at least you're good at something. Don't worry about the things you're not so good at and just embrace the positive! Buy new clothes if the ones you have don't fit. Having money troubles? That's why there are salvation armies and things like that. :)

Options, options, options! There are so many. Talk to your counselor about how you're feeling in depth (that's what they're there for) and discuss options. I bet you're a great person, Colin. You just got to believe it. Also, you're at that time in your life where things are just so confusing, so troubling, and maybe you feel like no one gets you and you wish you were different. I understand you have depression for different reasons, but this could just be a major phase. I don't want to downgrade this or anything, don't get me wrong. It's just that I've been where you are at your age. I never expected to make it this far.

Chin up! I'm here if you ever need to talk or feel like venting some more about anything. <3

Thanks for your concern jess

[thewhiteyeezus]

First off, stop doubting yourself and stop putting yourself down. You don't need it. You're a wonderful guy and you need to see that. :)

We float in the same boat, you and I. I've been taking anti-depressants for over a year and am still very shy and anxious. Still get panic attacks, too! You ever get those? Oh, they're the worst. When I was in school, I felt like an outcast and like people thought I was a snob who thought she was better than everyone else. But I was just shy as hell! So yeah, I get it. Maybe those pills aren't for you. Have you ever considered changing your prescription? See what other options you have in that respect?

And hey, at least you're good at something. Don't worry about the things you're not so good at and just embrace the positive! Buy new clothes if the ones you have don't fit. Having money troubles? That's why there are salvation armies and things like that. :)

Options, options, options! There are so many. Talk to your counselor about how you're feeling in depth (that's what they're there for) and discuss options. I bet you're a great person, Colin. You just got to believe it. Also, you're at that time in your life where things are just so confusing, so troubling, and maybe you feel like no one gets you and you wish you were different. I understand you have depression for different reasons, but this could just be a major phase. I don't want to downgrade this or anything, don't get me wrong. It's just that I've been where you are at your age. I never expected to make it this far.

Chin up! I'm here if you ever need to talk or feel like venting some more about anything. <3

Also im not trying to vent or anything, i just want to express my thoughts about myself

[Jessiibear]

Also im not trying to vent or anything, i just want to express my thoughts about myself

That's venting. :) And it's totally okay.

[thewhiteyeezus]

That's venting. :) And it's totally okay.

If you say so